you are so full of shit, if you had no one told you what anything did, and you couldnt already drive, you cant just 'learn it on your own'. you knew what a clutch was and a throttle, maybe you hadnt tried a clutch but you knew how it worked from someone. and plenty of guys have self esteem issues as well. a friend of mine committed suicide at 17, he sure wasnt the picture of happiness the last time i saw him. fuck you.