Def don't want to say I have bad luck but I hope some better luck comes my way.
Some people have had crazy fucked up shit happen to them. I've had things happen, but I've been lucky enough to bounce back. I've had bad injuries, but they haven't killed me, they haven't kept me from living a decent life. I get that that's lucky enough, but some of the bullshit still grinds at me.
I'm a really nice trustworthy person. I can't fuck people over. On friday, somebody gave me $100 instead of a single for a ticket. I didn't even look because I wasn't paying attention. I spend almost an hour in the show trying to find them. First time, well I guess second time meeting them.
Tonight a friend ended up in a bad spot. Really nice guy but way too trusting. I tried to help him bail earlier but shit got worse. He's okay but just out a lot of money getting scammed. I've been on the phone with him the last 2 hours on and off calming him down, listening to him, giving him advice, getting him to go to security, trying to convince him to file a police report.
I told him to hit anybody else up, but if nobody will come through I'll give him a ride to his car tomorrow. He's an hour and a half or so away, and his car is another hour plus away, each way. I need to finish packing for my road trip to move to california(which is now delayed 2 days while I wait for my new CC's to get here). Also wasted all of today filling out paperwork, on the phone, and driving 4 hours out of the way to get to the dmv, sherrif, bank, etc and start replacing and fixing shit from my wallet getting stolen last night.
Don't get me wrong, if somebody I know, or even a friend of a friend really needs help, even in the middle of the fucking night call me. If it's in anyway possible, I will drive there, send them a few bucks, do anything.
That said I wonder. I have some great friends, I really do. Like my buddy that I've helped out in the past that hooks me up on car work from years ago till forever. Things like that. But if I was ever in a bind mentally or shit was going down. Idk. Idk who I'd call, who I could call.
Idk if karma or anything is real, but hoping that the universe get's that I'm really trying to do right by people and I don't get struck by a bolt of lightning or anything crazy. Seems like not much to ask for but recently Idk.
I guess I signed on for a life of adventure so that's what I get for better or worse, but it just bothers me when in normal casual places, shit still gets so fucked up.
I got robbed for $0 in Africa in 4 months this year(I know I got robbed bad last year but whatever) but 4 months. I get that it's all relative but people where I was aren't fucking starving, they're stealing because they're scumbags. I know it's fucked, but I really do wish some bad shit on them.
It's funny that my middle name is loyal. I guess I am to a fault sometimes. I'm naive but understanding. I get that the world is fucked. I've been to some fucked up places, and seen some fucked up things. I get that it's not all unicorns and rainbows. That said it still fucking bothers me. I wish so much better for people and this crazy planet we ride through day and night.
We all make mistakes but please don't be a douche. If you're not starving, and you're stealing from people you might be a scumbag. Don't so that shit. Idk. I'm amazed at how many times I've had to give people a moral lesson in why they shouldn't steal shit, litter, or other stuff. I wish more people gave a fuck.
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Cheers to any decent people out there. If somebodies ever in a bind and you can assist, don't overdraw/exert yourself but consider helping. The more fucked up things get the more calloused we become. The more likely to say "fuck you! Tough shit!" I don't want that though. Maybe it's naive, maybe it's juvenile, but I want to believe that people/ the world are good, and the world is a good place. I guess time will tell. I don't want shitty people to make me say fuck it all.
That's kind of toward a lot of things. Idk. Maybe it's too many people, maybe it's too many differences, but it's way too much bullshit.
I get that I post a lot in here, sometimes not for a while, but when I'm stressed and everythings kind of fucked, it helps me out. Typing out words, even if I'm rambling is therapeutic. I used to just troll the forums when I was stressed, but now I guess I just type nonsense in here.
Hope all is well out there.