God I wish I had an alias so I felt comfortable posting this shit.
Vibes to the people who need the help and had the problems to get pilled in the first place.
I started with percs for fun, 5's. Then I ran out and tried vikes too and would just take more to get to the same point. Great relaxer for me, as someone with ADHD whose life is constantly in speedcity from addy and such.
I saw I was abusing them and cut them out for a year or two, but in the couple months or so I began freebasing 30's off foil with my homies. They got involved, I got associated.
Shit is incredibly fun, because in spurts it gives you energy and you feel heaven. Super chill, and I have never really enjoyed other drugs, except for the ones that made you chill. I don't like to speed or see things. I like to feel good.
Is something wrong with me because my recreational actions are different, because my interest in what I get from drugs is not the same as yours? I hate judgement in choice, because it is personal choice.
That being said, I am watching it destroy my best friends lives and wallets and with all the coaxing, I know I still can't pull them out because I come first, and I'd rather hold myself up than be dragged down trying to help someone who doesn't want to tread water.
If you are someone's only family as a group of friends, how are you supposed to keep them going, while moving your own feet and trying to be as successful as possible.
Life is dark. I hated writing this.