Did all you guys just skip the fact that this dude is threatening suicide and not post anything of value...thats fucked up.  Dude if you were able to get into rehab before it means that somebody obviously cares for you and is willing to support you, hopefully they are still there for you.  If your posting this stuff here, that shows that at least you have some remorse and intention to help yourself get off the smack, what about looking into a counciling and rehab place somewhere far away, like montana where you can ski and you wont have the same scene to drag you into drugs etc?