I don't have much to say other than that I'm sorry. I feel like a pretty big loser right now. I have talked about wanting to live authentically and then I fucked with a picture to make it more impressive. I think I have just felt the need to try and impress you guys, the skiers that follow me, a lot since I came out. A lot of you unfollowed me after I came out and that's fine, I'd actually rather that than have people following me and making fun of me and leaving hurtful comments. I spend about half of my time on Instagram deleting comments from kids calling me a faggot or worse and blocking the kids that wrote them. The thing that sucks about it though is that when I look at their pages, those kids are almost entirely young skiers. It genuinely bums me out to get that kind of negativity on my page from kids who I had hoped would've been the one's able to connect with me, regardless of my sexuality, over a shared love of skiing. Anyway, I know that after an 8 month hiatus from skiing last spring / summer because of a blown knee and then coming out publicly in the fall that there hadn't been much ski-related content on my page in a while and that my audience had changed quite a lot. That's why I've tried to go as hard as possible since my first day back on snow this season. That's why I filmed and posted the little insta-edits on the rails at Keystone and Breck to show that I was back and that yes I was a "faggot" but that it didn't change anything in terms of my skiing capabilities. Yes, I sheepishly admit that I used an app on my phone to make the picture in the pipe look bigger. Why? I don't really know. While I was posting it I thought to myself, "this is so lame. People are gonna notice" but stupidly I ignored my better judgment and posted it anyway. I just wanted to post a ski picture that would be impressive. In hindsight it was really fucking stupid and it's embarrassing to have to admit that I did that. I am not proud of it but, sometimes, I can be a very insecure person and as a result I have said and done some things that don't align with the type of person I want to be. This being one of those instances. I thought about trying to say I didn't photoshop the pic and that it was the way it was sent to me but I think it's better to just own up to it. It was a mistake and it won't happen again. I deleted the picture, I don't know what else to do beyond that. I'm sorry for being an idiot. Hope you're all having a good season so far.