Tripping alone for the first time

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Hey NS, Just wanted to make an outreach to the small psychedelic community that exists on NS.
My brother who has a lot of experience and courage with psychedelics, just picked me up an eighth of shrooms. I have never tried mushrooms before and I haven't really experimented with any other psychedelics although I feel like I have experienced a lot of weird feelings in my life. I am currently 21 years of age, which probably doesn't matter too much. I've had the opportunity to trip for a long time considering my brother and the high school that I attended. Drugs were abundant. However, I tended to fear and avoid anything passed getting drunk or high.
I have also always been a huge introvert and observer. I feel like I have never really fit in with anybody or any particular paradigm/belief system IE religion, our culture, cities, peer groups/teams, school etc. I also have greatly enjoyed my observances. I love to think especially in a psychedelic manner. I love to read, learn, and listen to anything about psychedelics, consciousness, physics, psychology, sociology, astronomy, alchemy etc. I love to study things that have an insightful perspective on the workings of our world. I think that viewing many aspects of life helps us see the clearer picture. I want to see through the lense of the shroom now. I think that the shrooms and culmination of what I have been researching into and learning about should culminate and resonate well together.
I thought I would also mention that I have smoked pot on and off for 6 years. This year really has been the year that I have smoked the most. I smoke everyday constantly. I do this because I have become much more comfortable in this mindset. Not laziness however, the power behind ideas and music and creativity so much more abundant when I'm high. I've also noticed that the personality behind weed has helped me move from rational thinking to more of an emotion based intuition. I feel more in touch and my senses feel heightened when I'm high.
Another important thing I thought I should mention is that people make my skin crawl. I have a lot of friends, but I honestly don't feel a tight tie to anyone in my peer group. Don't get me wrong, I like to socialize, go out, and have a good time, but socializing requires a lot of energy for me. I have to charge back up by chilling alone. When I have gotten really baked with my friends, it can sometimes be a really hard experience for me. I almost feel all my personality drains my body. I am super analytical of anything I think about saying. I also become 10 times more analytical of my friends and their behavior. It sort of feels like I am a scientist watching but that I am not in the room to participate. I also feel a huge increase in awkwardness and a heightened awareness of connection between my friends and I. This happens about half the time I get baked with friends. The other half of the time its enjoyable. I think this is caused by myself being way too over analytical. I also have these same feelings when Im high in public but their usually even harder to manage.
None of my close friends have any psychedelic knowledge or experience. However, I do have friends that have a lot of experience with these kinds of things. However, I am not super close to these people and would probably feel uncomfortable around them just getting baked. Basically, at this point I'm thinking that the easiest experience I will have with these shrooms is if I take them alone. I feel like if I'm around anybody, I will lose focus and think in the wrong mindset during the trip. I am super self-reliant and usually feel best when alone and unnoticed.
I am thinking that I will take the shrooms alone in my apartment when the vibe is feeling good. I will medidate and spend the day getting my head in the right mindset to trip. I was also planning on not eating for a couple hours before I eat the mushrooms. I was also planning on lying in my bed medidation during the onset of the trip. I was planning on staying in my bed during the whole trip. I'm not sure if this is a great idea, but I think this is what will be easiest and most comfortable to me. So I would take the shrooms alone in my bed at night and stay in the same place until the trip was over.
So NS, do you think it is best FOR ME to eat these shrooms alone for my first trip ever?
Also, how does my plan for the trip sound to you?
I would also love to hear you first trip experiences or just anything interesting you have to say on the subject matter.

Thanks guys

 
dude, you're fine. as long as they're real psylocibin mushrooms, nothing bad will happen. you might trip balls though. worrying so much about psychedelics is what makes you have a bad trip.
 
I would have your brother or someone there, I've never taken them alone but it would be really weird by yourself. It's not like weed where you can kind I overcome it, your gonna trip hard for hours it's better to have someone with you to make sure things are ok and you don't go crazy after like 6 hours and still not being able to sleep or even close your eyes without your mind racing at 1000 thoughts a second
 
I understand that it is going to be an experience that I haven't experienced before. I think I can handle the craziness in my head and If I can't then I will surrender to the trip and let it take me where it does. I am honestly not too worried about what's going on mentally.
I'm worried about what's going on physically as far as me getting out of bed and fucking myself up by falling, jumping, going out into the street, etc. I just basically don't want to physically endanger myself. I understand what you mean about having someone around but at the same time I think having someone around would actually launch me into a bad trip.
I've had some really amazing and insightful experiences when I'm baked and alone. When I get baked around anyone, I feel uncomfortable and I know that my mind isn't in the right place. I'm worried when I trip that I'll take this negative mindset to the next level if I trip around someone.
 
If you trip ever turns bad for any reason and you start getting these crazy ideas in your head you just gotta tell yourself "its just the drugs" it will end at some point.

That being said, get yourself some bud, cigs and some good tunes and you cant really have a bad trip. Also, i duno where you live but if its not shitty out GO OUTSIDE take a walk, get out in the elements. Changing environment (inside to outside or vice versa) and going on adventures outside while tripping is personally one of my favorite things to do!

Last but not least, have fun. Tripping alone ( or tripping in general for that matter) has lead me to some of the deepest thinking and some truly life changing thoughts/experiences. Veryyy mind opening

one last side note if you're looking for some good tunes to listen to i would highly suggest some Lotus (my personal favorite) and maybe a lil STS9. both realll solid choices for a psychedelic expedience!
 
Thanks for the insight dude! I would go outside but I live in a city. All the hiking trails nearby are heavily traveled. As I already said, I can't deal with unfamiliar people when I'm stoned. I am currently at school. If I was home in the mtns I would be so down.
OTT is also pretty sweet. Love listening to their music when I'm baked, it evokes good feelings/images/flash_video_placeholder.png
 
Tripped once. Never again. But it was so much fun, I was with one of my closest friends and we just kinda chilled and talked
 
Take them during the day, pop in some music take a walk in the park. Sit on a bench, and think the trip out, enjoy nature and shit. I wouldnt take them alone at night if you never have before, and having your brother there to help direct your trip at all if needed would be very recommended.

ive never tripped alone but have with friends and usually we enjoy hikes, sounds gay but its pretty tight if you have any creeks or anything in your area.
 
I mean if you know your way around where you are currently living just got for a stroll! Trust me it may seem like everyone knows your tripping or stoned or whatever you may think in your altered state butttt in reality they have nooooo idea...Which is the best part about it haha But, i feel you, understandable. Stay where you are most comfortable and just enjoy that shit
 
eat the shrooms, vibe out, relax, and start trippin face. go for a walk, play nhl, pet your cat. don't fucking think about it, certainly don't write 6 paragraphs about it. they're just shrooms.
 
this is all good advice, throw some bud, cigs if you smoke em, and an ipod in your pocket and you have a get out of jail free card right there. if at any time you start to feel less than great about a situation, throw the ipod on and/or smoke and/or switch up your environment and you will be having a fucking ball

go somewhere where you dont have to worry about cops or weird people and somewhere where you can fuck around inside and go explore outside at your leisure

i guessss i'd suggest tripping with someone else for the first time but the first time i tripped i just gobbled up an 8th and went and hung with some friends that werent tripping and did shit and it was awesome

only other warning i feel is really necessary besides avoid cops and shit (youre not gonna do anything crazy but it's much harder to act normal if youre tripping hard than it is if youre just high or w/e and a lot of cops are full of bad vibes, for lack of a less hippy dippy expression) is don't have some huge important or depressing thing hanging over your head to worry about, and try not to have anything scheduled for the night (and preferably the next morning, cause youll probably stay up late having fun and pondering shit and then sleep like a dead baby) so you can just explore and have fun

have fun bro! be safe. hit me up with a private message if you have any other questions or anything

(important disclaimer: anyone reading this under 18, don't even think about doing psychedelics til youre 18)
 
i had a bad experience with accidentally ingesting a very small amount of psilocybin but i was by myself. a few weeks later i ate seven caps by myself and i would say it definitely changed my life.

eat around half of what your brother picked since you will be flying solo. after you eat them, the anticipation may be very scary since there won't be anyone with you, so make sure you have a friend to text. go in with a positive mindset. think of a girl you like, listen to soothing music, etc.

if you happen lose it, make sure you don't leave your room.

good luck

 
Yeah, I've already eaten two of them to see how it felt. I actually felt amazing. It was like an energy surge. I felt much more compassionate and open to others which is odd since I usually feel the opposite haha. Thanks for the advice guys, its helpful
 
you're probably a super nice kid and everything, and you seem fairly educated by demonstrating you can organize and produce a coherent and logical piece of writing...

but the fact that this stupid shit has consumed so much of your time is fucking ridiculous man. go outside and do something productive instead of intricately planning an experience with drugs. jesus fucking christ am i the only one who finds this absurd as shit?
 
The first time i tripped was alone i would say only take half the eight and have something to sooth your stomach. If anything goes bad just remember its in your head or text a friend. Life changing experence have fun.
 
Just trying to describe where I am coming from. I know its long and heavily thought out, but I'm trying to reach out to people who have similar experiences or feelings so I can also hear from them.
As you can tell, I am pretty analytical so I'm guessing the trip is going to be that way as well for me
 
So I had been planning on taking them last night for a while. My car broke down in the grocery store parking lot for a while.

Anyways I ended up getting home and smoking a bowl. I also opened my mailbox and had discovered that a book I had ordered had been delivered. The book is called Archaic Revival by Terence McKenna. The book is basically about shamanism, shrooms, history, and what Terrence believes the human experience is building towards. Anyways, I thought the book was sort of a hint that I should eat the shrooms.

So I made myself some sage tea which calms me down, got into my bed and began to read. At the same time, I ate pretty much the entire eighth of shrooms that I had. I felt completely fine going into the trip and I was actually pretty stoked to be alone. I was also pretty excited to be tripping for the first time.

I slowly ate the shrooms over a period of 2 hours to make sure I didn't get myself in too far for the first time. As I was reading, I started to notice that the ceiling was moving. The textures on my celing began to swirl and almost looked like blood rushing through veins. It looked as though my ceiling was alive, which was pretty cool. Anyways, nothing too crazy occurred in terms of hallucinations. Colors were brighter and my celing just kept moving while everything else pretty much stayed the same.

The weirdest part of my experience though was that I thought I would lose my shit and freak out. But I felt great the entire time and every time my mind began to head in the wrong direction, I just stopped the thought.

What else was weird about the experience was that my state of mind was pretty much the same state of mind I enter when I get really baked. It wasn't new territory at all for my head, which got me thinking that my mind was naturally psychedelic and that my weirdness could be attributed to this fact. I have always had insights and interesting thoughts even when I'm sober so the shrooms helped me think a little deeper but nothing that I hadn't experienced before. It was awesome, the trip made me realize that my natural state of thinking was already fairly psychedelic. My mind also was going a million miles an hour with thoughts, but this shit happens to me on a daily basis. My friends and parents always say that I think too much. So this wasn't a new experience for me, which was really weird but also very cool because as I said, i think my natural state of thinking is already deep and questionative.

Another thing that was fun to think about was where I actually really was. Was I actually in my body? At some point, I felt like I was part of everything. The best part about the trip though is I didn't take the trip personal. I felt like I was just an outsider looking in on a different perspective but I wasn't attached to this perspective. So in other words, when bad thoughts or good thoughts entered my head, I didn't take them personal, I just observed them and tried to figure out what the point of the thought was.

I also didn't actually know if I was tripping at times. Then I would hallucinate and come back out of the hallucination and ask myself, did i just experience that?

It was a great experience, and I didn't mind being alone at all. If I actually lost my shit, I think I would rather just be alone then have to deal with someone asking if I was alright or if I needed help. It was alot different from what I expected in terms of how i thought I would feel alone. I loved being alone!

The shrooms I dont think were very potent however, which is probably a good thing. It was a good starter batch and got me comfortable and eager to try it again in the future. It was a great experience and I had a lot of good insights about my own personal life and my relationships.

I figured I would write this down as sort of a trip log so I have some place where I can come and look back at my first trip! I think I'll got outside next time, sitting in your bed all night can get restless especially when your head is running a million miles a minute.

 
Didnt read anything but the OP, and yes, I think you should take them by yourself and you will have a great time. If you don't enjoy being around other people when you're high you sure as fuck wont like being around them when you're on shrooms. If you take them alone though, I think you'll have an amazing time. Just remember mind over matter and just ride the trip out. You'll love it. Shrooms can be absolutely amazing in the right environment.
 
haha you beat me to it, except this was going to be my post

"inb4 future sociopath serial killer, no jk jk man, just go do your drugs and be happy"
 
Sounds a lot like me in a way, didnt read the whole post. But i tripped on mushrooms my first time when i was 19, although id never do it alone and have only eatin 2.5g's it was the best night of my life, all 3 times lol. Youll enjoy its not what everyone cracks it up to be.
 
Sounds like you tripped at night? To really experience them you need to be outside on a beautiful day! You will see and visualize so much more.
 
Duuuude you are my clone. I'm an over thinker too and reading your description of weed experiences and daily routines was just like reading a secret journal I would have written. No suprises here that you liked your trip, mine was awesome too. I would look at trees and be so amazed that such thing exist, giant beam poking out of the ground, what would aliens say if they saw such things? And so on... I was on some good shit though, at one point (beceause I was wearing bright clothing) I was convinced I was a candy and had to munch my sleeves several times to make sure I was still human, good times haha. I always told myself "only once" but this thread made me change my mind and I definitely need to try it again in another environment!
 
1. alone in fun2. get some paper and pens

3. the album mogwai-young team

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5. the documentary Baraka

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6. ring pops

7. black lights and shit

8. dejembe or bongos
 
i can relate to you very much as well. i'm such an analytical person and i'm always over thinking things. i sort of hate that about myself. the thing about your opinion on people and relationships is spot on with me as well. as the kid above stated, it felt like a personal journal, it was dead on. i've never gotten high, drunk or anything else though. sorry i have no stories or insight to contribute.
 
Yeah, I dont neccesarily think its a bad thing to be analytical. I have never been one to just jump into something, which I also think is a good thing. Its easier to see something for what it is when your an outside observer in the absence of judgement or participation. So I don't think this mindset is necessarily bad because it does add some clarity to life. Its easy to go with the flow but then your stuck in a reality that someone else has put in place and thats exactly what government is there to do is guide you. I feel alienated often but that's not bad either because as I have started to notice, alienation brings clarity.
 
Yeah its funny that he said that because the shrooms just reinforced my mindset. I felt completely at home in this state of mind. IN other words my mental processes on shrooms was fairly similar to my day-to-day brain activity
 
Although i dont feel as into the same thought process as you are in, i feel close and when i take shrooms its like a meditation that enforces the way i feel and gives me clarity and confidences in my everyday life. The next couple days after a trip are always gratifying. I've always been told "im naturally stoned" that wont make sense to everyone.
 
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