well ummm
i just got off the phone with her 20 minutes ago. i told her where i stood and that i still really liked her. she told me that she always screws up relationships and in a relationship she looks for sex as one of the things in a relationship. she knows that im against that so thats a reason she wont date me. im really crushed and depressed now because i liked her so much and shes telling me that just because i wont have sex with her she wont go out with me. Is that what girls want now, sex or forget it? thats pretty low to me. she said since she did it before in a relationship she really wants it again, its like going to a chocolate factory and not getting any chocolate, or going through a maze without getting anything at the end. I dont view it that way.
Im still going to hang out with her when i can, i care about her too much to let her go. it just feels like ive been stabbed in the chest because i cared about her so much and all my feelings for her arent going to go away for a long time, but i cant do anything with them. i wish i could just go right now, drive up to her house, and go wake her up and kiss her and tell her ill be there for her. I dont care about all the bad things shes done in the past, i dont care if shes made mistakes, we all have. I see the good in her and all the fun things we've done together. I see the girl that id love to be with, someone that i can spend a whole day doing absolutely nothing with and feel fantastic. If she ends up drifting away and we never talk again or something like that, i wont stop caring for her, or wondering what shes up to and how shes doing. Even though ive only known her for 7 months i can say that ive fallen hard, way to hard to ever get back up again. I miss her already, i cant stop thinking about her, she means everything to me
sorry for telling all you newschoolers about this, dont piss me off with stupid posts,
im done
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seth
Fairygirl: Why must you be so damn good looking? Why?? lol
nipe: Thats right Diabhal, because we're skiers