dude, the guy had leukemia and he was only 19 or 20. If you had leukemia would you curse god and play house hermit until you die, OR suck it up like this kid did, play the cards you were dealt knowing you prolly will die from cancer? In the begining it said, you can only be free when you have nothing to lose. he knows hes going to die sooner than later, hes free, he can unleash and break the shackles that restrain us from doing something incredibly dangerous like that. if i was drunk ide prolly tear up over that