dear newschoolers,this is an alias, ill admit that right now. im 15. . im 99% sure that i have depression. ive been suicidal for about a year almost, and the only thing that has keept me here is skiing.i honestly dont know if i would still be here if i wasnt a skier. im to small to play any other sports, and i have no other tallents. ever since ive been depressed (around the beginning of 9th grade), i have been a different person. im more quite and reserved, instead of funny and outgoing. unless im skiing. i dont consider myself an alcoholic, but the only time im happy and act like my real self ( atleast my old self) is when im wasted