yeah, its so gnarly. Half of my family is pretty newly American (I'm a third generation, second generation English speaker) and were really fucked with in San Francisco so depression and alcoholism became a family trait. We've had a few members of the family succeed at suicide and a few more attempting. It's horrible, it really tears families apart.
I hate it when people refuse to understand depression. its a chemical imbalance in the brain often brought on after a particularly horrible experience. people hardly understand that and its really shitty when people accuse those with depression of "making it all up." a CHEMICAL IMBALANCE is nothing to fuck with, depression is a horrible thing for anyone to go through. I have first hand experience with it and its fucking HORRIBLE.
I hope that whatever you're going through works out for you. If you have any questions, feel free to ask me about it.