update on my situation:
After 2 months of me doing what my ex was wanting me to do, before she would want to get back together, to better myself. (Drinking less, going to therapy, working on myself) I find out she has a new boyfriend, and that he will probably be moving in with her, in our old house down the street from where I reside currently. Also had her randomly text me and let me know that all of the furniture that she was storing for me (we had agreed on this) was now to be found on the front lawn. So yesterday I got to go pick up my bed frame, couch, bbq, all from her front lawn while she and her new boyfriend more than likely enjoyed watching struggling to load it all up and to add a cherry on top. She informed me that the wifi that I had left for her to use as my new spot has wifi already was going to be cancelled and I am being left with the 350$ bill. I cant do anything though as the Bar that she recently got hired at happens to be my friends and I's favourite spot where we have gone for years, and I made the dumb call of helping her get hired there when we were together, and now she has the power to ban me if she feels like it.
Only thing I can do is stay busy enough it keeps the mind pre occupied, and I remind myself there are those that need me, and if a negative thought comes in I try to blast it with a happy remembrance or shut it down by trying to stress over something more current.
