So now im really depressed

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well for my summer readin books i got to choose two and one is called on the beach it said it was like one of te most depressing books ever or w/e, but i really didn't care cause i didn't think books could make me change the way i feel. well i don't know if it's just because the end of summer is coming or what, but the book is really making me feel bad at myself for not doing more things this summer, and it's making me think what im gonna do these last weeks before school. im not done with the book yet, but all these people are like planning out what they wanna do before they die from this radioactive stuff, and it's making me really angry. i don't know if anyone else has read it, but now it's got me thinking that i don't have much time left to live and i gotta get to doing stuff. i know there's also a movie but i wanted to read the book first, but has anyone read or seen the movie and felt this way? i'm really not liking it
 
i've heard of that, we learned about it in our english class while studying the arms race. i want to read it, it sounds great. and for you kids who call him a pussy, books have a lot more power than you think. if you actually sit down to read one, it really can impact you. i read a book that helped me decide what i want to do for a career for the rest of my life.
 
hes got a lot more problems than a book kid i cant imagine the level of depression i would be in if i were in his situation
 
well this thread was from before my dad was killed and now that i think back, that was nothing compared to what i feel now.
 
now that i got back to thinking about this, everything is getting really weird now. there have been a lot of weird coincidences and stuff before and after my dad was killed. in a way i guess this book actually helped me a little, because it constantly reminded me that we never know when we're going to die, and it forced me every day over summer to live that day to the fullest. the week before my father's death our whole family spent a lot of time together since my dad was on vacation. we went out to dinner out a nice place on one night, then we went to six flags another day, and then both my sisters, mom, and dad all went up to help my sister move back into college, and they all spent the day together. i wish i had been there with them, but of course all i thought about was the long car ride and how boring it would be. i look back and think that not going was the worst decision i've ever made in my life. i know my dad really cared about my family though because he struggled to survive long enough for me and my sister to get to the hospital and say goodbye. this whole situation is a nightmare, but i'd be a lot worse if i didn't get to see my dad before he died. i've said it before, but i can't emphasize it enough. love your life, and love those who make you love life.
 
Serious respect man!! I can't imagine how rough are now but all the best my friend!!

And yeah u are in inspiration for all of us!!
 
I have respect for you and i know where ur comming from.. my brother passed away almost 6 years ago october... It's hard times for sure.. i remember that day over and over in my head. i remember what my dad was lecturing us about life that day, the football game we had the day before i even remember the last time i ever saw him alive jumping down from the steps into his friends car going to a birthday party. Its like a horrible dream that doesnt go away. The memories haunt you but over time all the good times you had with him that make u sad will turn to good and you will be able to remember him and his personallity that made you love him so much. I promise everything will end up ok but its going to take some time... the first 4 even 5 even 6 years are hard for sure and its depressing, hard, u wish he was with you, u miss him and u cry every single day, but i look at it that things happen for a reason and for some fucked up stupid reason you will turn out a stronger, better, more powerful human being for this happening. Its hard for sure man and i hope you and your family the best of luck and you will be in my prayers...
 
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Thanks a lot for the help man. I'm sorry about your loss too. Everyone keeps saying how everything thing happens for a reason and stuff so that's what i'm trying to beleive, but i know it's gonna be rough. thanks again
 
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