Literally don't even know what to do right now. I've gotten fucked over by too many smaller places that took advantage of how nice I was.
Really don't want anything that isn't a legit job. Also have the experience to back that up. 12 seasons done in my job. 15 at ski areas. All with pretty amazing references except for maybe one that we didn't see eye to eye on things. I fucking hate job politics though.
All I want to do, all I've ever wanted to do is make some good parks for the kids. I never had a terrain park growing up. I guess that's been a big part of my obsession with this career. Every hill has some limitations, but at the end of the day, A lot of places aren't doing the best they can, and to me that's not acceptable. I was hoping to ditch out on the smaller places and go back to the big stuff but after the Euro and Ca jobs falling through, I'm kind of lost.
I wish there was some small hill where I could just build and build and make things sick for the peoples. I don't care what I get paid, I don't care what our limitations are. All I want is a place that cares enough to try, and let me do my job. My 2 jobs for this year were bigger gigs with smaller roles and don't play into this. But some of the places I've worked and places people have told me about. Fuck.
I grew up in a town with no skatepark, the only places that were skateable the cops would be called. I built a mini ramp in my driveway and garage so I could skate. The local hill had no terrain park and it wasn't until I was 16/17 that I rode a park regularly.
The local kids at a lot of these places have no other spot to go. They go to the place that's close, the place their parents can afford a pass and drop them off. It's just a bummer that so many of these smaller places put so little efforts into their parks.
I really fucking hope one day that I find a good gig somewhere at a company big or small, where I'm not butting heads, and I can make some sort of impact. I've had some success in the past as well as some giant waste of times. I've had several very talented friends leave this industry after getting too frustrated with things. I'm always scared that this may be my last season. I never want to lose that passion that I have for this. When I work 23 hours straight to finish a setup and see kids having fun hitting those features after. The money is irrelevant. That's all that I need. But sometimes this industry like any other can be a fickle bitch.
Maybe, fucking maybe I can land somewhere good, that I mesh with, that I can do good work with, and just have things work out. For once. That's all I fucking want. Idk why that's too much to ask, but the universe doesn't seem to be on the same page as me right now.
It's good to see everyone getting snow this year. Have a good season folks. Sorry for the bitching. Just sad right now honestly.
