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skipimp_

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kinda wierd, but here goes, heres mine:

Hi.

well, if you call, I am going to talk about these things, but I want to get them out just in case I miss you, or lose the headspace...

Im not confused about why things are as they are.

In a way, I should thank you for putting me back in touch with those feelings I hadn't felt in so long.

Now I realize why I was protecting myself. (I am trying hard to avoid the cliche, as I know none of this is new material to you.)

It took a lot of mental work to get to where I am, and I am proud of myself, but I am still vulnerable.

Imagining you with another guy hurts me.. still. You sharing feelings with another guy makes me sad that it's not me youre sharing with... but I can cope with it. Imagining you sleeping with another guy .. that hurts the most. I can't really handle it..

or explain it...

epecially right now over x'mas... the time I was hoping to spend with you... it especially hurts now.

You've had someone to focus on, to put your energy towards, so I understand the disconnect from me... but I was and still am putting my energy into you.... so it's far from easy to shift my focus..I feel foolish for not shifting my focus earlier....but it is shifting now (is that good or bad news to you? how does it make you feel?).... I am strong.

I have girls around me, who like me, who I like... It wouldnt be hard for me to pursue any of these... although they will face the same distance issues, eventually.. even the ones in Kamloops. Im not broken. thats the good news.

I am still here, and as of right now, I would take you back.... although I don't think thats what you'll choose.

I also don't put many eggs in the imaginary distant future basket when we cross paths again....

if you said no to sex with ..him.. just once, it would make me fell better. silly isnt it..

im wasting my time.

bye.

happy new year......

 
Zoe, you're freaking me out. All of a sudden you want all this

contact. We went from almost a straight month of not talking to having

these awkward semi-regular conversations. Seriously, it's weird. All

of a sudden you're apologizing to me. Why the hell are you doing this now? We broke

up over four months ago but you're suddenly have a crisis of

conscience?

Listen, summer sucked. I don't want your sympathy, I want to

move on and you're really not helping. Every time you get in contact

with me I spend the next day torn up. I've been fighting with myself

ever since you texted me that apology. Every day I struggle with

whether to hear you out or tell you to fuck off.

What do you want from me anyway? I told you during the summer

I'm never going to be your friend, I'll always be your ex-boyfriend. I

really don't care that all your other exes have decided to walk that

path, I'm choosing a different one for myself. This brings me to my

next point. I don't want to hang out or party with you. Even though

it's been four months, don't ask me to sit and watch you get drunk and

hook up with every guy in the room. Ever since we broke up, my friends

have felt free to share all kinds of stories with me. Hahahaha, I

remember that night when you called me after we broke up. You were

telling me about how proud you were of yourself that you didn't hook up

with that Cory guy at Jon's house. Congratulations, you're now on the

path to success Zoe! Step One - Actually don't hook up with a guy!

Step Two - ??? Step Three - Profit!

Besides, friendship is a two way street. Why should I bother

putting myself out there again just to get shot down? I think the only

reason I fell for you in the first place is that you don't exactly

reciprocate. It's kind of sick, but I guess that's how I am, I can't

have a relationship that's too easy or comfortable. I don't think

you're capable of holding up your end. Case in point: That night in

Abique was fucking horrible for me. Easily the worst night of the

summer. I spent all night sitting on that rock wishing I hadn't drank

anything so I could just walk back to my car and drive home. All of my

real friends came and kept me company. After offloading all that

bullshit on me about how you really wanted to be friends you barely

even acknowledged me. A five minute visit would have made everything

alright, you were the reason I was over there for fuck's sake. I don't

think we had even been broken up for two whole days yet at that point.

But, nope. You were to too engrossed in that other guy. For that I'm

still kind of bitter.

I want to cut off the communication. I'm actually do this as

a favor to you. The only reason I've been texting or IMing back is

that I've been getting a sick pleasure from watching you flounder.

It's really not that fun to grasp vainly for a relationship that

doesn't exist is it? Welcome to how I spent my summer hon.

Keep in mind I don't really hold all of this against you as a

person. I was almost as much of an ass to my ex-girlfriends. But then

again, I don't expect them to spontaneously forgive me and agree to be

friends. Anyway, if you think I've been unfair about any of this, you

know my number. Otherwise, this is goodbye.

-Chris

P.S. Congratulations, you're the first person to ever make it on to my shitlist. Ever.

 
Someone deserves a special cookie after deciphering that one!

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which one armada?

good letter, although you were unfair at a few points... such as calling her a prostitute.... but yeah, well done
 
Well Chrissy, its been fun. I mean all the times we have had making fun of other people and such. Especially that time with the lady in front of the pizza place. Fun stuff. But you see I think I might actually end up cheating on you. It has nothing to do with you as a person but you know what? You not giving any. At all. And it sucks. I mean I like you, I really really do. But seriously, I'm not gonna spend 5 months with you and never even done anything but make out. I know you dont know this but there have been SO many other girls in the 2 month course we have been going out that I could have had my fill with in one night. And they would have let me! Why the hell are you holding back? You accused your last boyfriend of being too prude and what the hell are you doing? Nothing! I'm just slightly confused as to where this is gonna go. I mean you cant sit me on your bed and lay all on top of me and NOT want to at least grab your boob. And I know my gerthanthaclops isnt the most beautiful thing in the world but hey he gets happy sometimes too. Especially when you sit on me and decided to wiggle around. Do something about it! You got it that way, either stop or continue. So this Saturday at Catlyns party please understand that if I do anything with her hot friends, it isnt me doing it. It's the starved Jamie. The one who craves what your not giving. He is the one sticking his hand down her shirt and trying to finger her. Not me. Me, Im with you. Its your call if you pull the other Jamie back. And you probabbly wont. Because your like that. I dunno. This whole paragraph makes no sense. Basically in a nutshell love, I want ass. and your not giving it. So please before I do anything irrational, give me ass.

-Jamie
 
LMAO... My girlfriend sent me an email just as I was reading this thread and now I REALLY don't want to be at work. Here's what she sent;

"Hey… remember when we did it to the whole NIN CD ! hee-hee! I think there is a marathon overdue!"
 
We are now brotherins

and no I didnt send it. I decided to give her a little bit more of a chance.

But here that I REALLY should have sent to my ex:

You know Kinleigh, I loved you so much when we were going out. I seriously would have done anything for you. But now looking back on that fate full day, I realize where I went wrong: I asked you out. December 22, 2006. I knew you a little bit and thought oh shes kinda cute, but she'll never go for me. Eh what the hell, go for it anyways. Well I went and I asked you out. You said yes and I was all happy going on my merry little way. I told all my friends and they were all jealous cause I had a pretty hot girl now. Few days into this relationship I felt something was gonna go down. I just knew it. I asked you what you were doing that weekend so we could chillax and you said you were going to go to the movies with your ex. Instinct kicked in like a fiery elephant with a foaming mouth. I dont want you going to the movies with your ex! No! But you insisted that it was because you still wanted to be friends with them. I said okay whatever. Little did I know, that day would be the day that your whorish disease infested vagina would be penetrated by one of my friends mutated troll dick. You missy fucked up big time. AND NOT EVEN A WEEK INTO THE RELATIONSHIP! I mean what the fuck! Theres no way around it! You got fucked and you let it happen! But nooooo, I had to be the clingy one and forgive you. I still nut tap myself to this day for doing that. Three out of the four months we went out were filled with whore jokes, taunting, and why the fuck are you still with this girl from everyone I knew. I endured it though. Cause it was all for you. My little fucking angel. The love of my life. Bullshit. Bull fucking shit. You knew nothing of what I was saying. you cant even say I love you and mean it. Your full of empty, sluttly, AIDS infested shit. And thats what you deserve. Someone just like you. Who will cheat on you, say I love you and give you all the hopes and emotions you gave me and then just light them on fire. You Kinleigh, were the worst thing that has happened to me. I mean for christs sake you dont even give good hand jobs! What are you good for? Oh and thanks for screwing Craig over too. Wasnt good enough to crush me but you had to go for my buddy to. I tried to warn him but he wouldnt listen. We now both have conversations about how shitty you are and all the stuff you did to me was done to him too. And Kyle in Canada? Fuck him! He doesnt care shit about you. He just wants to screw you. "I dont know what love is but I think I found it" Ive heard that load of shit before. And today in study? 'Kristap stop it, I have a boyfriend" You dont know how bad I wanted to stand up in front of the whole class and go THAT NEVER FUCKING STOPPED YOU BEFORE! Ive been nice to you. But now all communication with you will be no more. Im not talking to you, im not looking at you, im not gonna IM you. All gone. You lost a good person Kinleigh. Hope you get fucked over just as bad one day. So in the words of Reel Big Fish:

I hate the way you look

(You make me sick)

I hate the way you talk

(I wanna punch you in the face)

I can't stand you at all

(You drive me insane)

Why won't you go away?

-Jamie

 
THIS IS WHAT SHE WROTE BACK:Hey. I tried calling you twice today and you werent there.

Just wanted to see how you were doing.

I know messages like these aren't your sort of thing, and I'm not trying some cheap attempt at friendship with you. I know you probably wanna stop contact with me altogether, but I really do wanna know how you're doing first (sincerely).

How was your trip in Mehico? god I hope... Anything really exciting happen?

I hope your trip back west went well also.

You never dropped off that movie, although I dont think I deserve it, I'm still curious to see what it was about.

So about your present that I was supposed to send you, I'm not allowed to send it anymore. Sry. Kinda sucks, Cause I did put enough time and money into it.

It was a scrapbook about our summer. Full of pics of cottages, montreal, the trip etc. Creeped on all your friends to find every single picture possible and had the good ones printed.

It was pretty nice, personalised, but pretty relationshipish, which probably would have freaked you out but I was gonna take my chances cause its the way I felt. lol

ouuu risky angele.

So anyways, hope all is well with you and that you are happy. Glad to know youre not as broken anymore. and glad to know some new opportunities are arising for you.

Later gator

A***************

ps. I am longing to be your facebook friend once more, im sad you deleted me haha jk its ok, i understand.

byeeee
 
This is what I wrote back: You want to know how I'm doing? Great, except when I think about you,

it leaves a bad taste in my mouth..

I'm not trying to be mean, just honest about how I feel. As you know,

I don't manufacture feelings with any conscious part of myself, they

happen, and I listen.

Lots of crazy things happened in Mexico...

but I don't feel like talking about it.

How could you make that for me, and then not give it to me? wtf.

How could you make it and then not even wait to see me again before ....

Oh right, because I couldn't give you what you were expecting.

At least not the Hard Copy.

Not allowed?!

Fuck that, that is not cool.

It is between me and you and no one else, He can fuck right off

Did you ever.. EVER let him read anything I wrote to you?

Because if you did,

I would never forgive you for it.

That is a betrayal of trust, and there is nothing worse.

besides fucking him right after.

..

sorry.

we can't be friends, you should know that.

I found that place inside me that is capable of commiting to you. ..

I am trying hard not to sound like the other guys that came before

me whose hearts you smashed as well..

I know what I'm worth, and getting to a place where I was genuinely

mentally ready to try a serious relationship.. well, that is quite the

thing.

i don't know what else to say.

I have nothing else to say.

 
Then she wrote back: WTF Shawn, why do you have to be so mean. Sorry for caring enough to want to know where youre at in life.

I cant give you the present because he feels it would open some doors... like its too loving, sorta. And it's not right to share those loving feelings with an ex when youre dating someone new. And where do these questions about him reading our stuff come from? no I didnt so why on earth would you assume that, out of nowhere? I used to give him updates about us when me and him werent serious, but thats it.

I told you I wasn't trying to be your friend, you've made it clear that that's impossible with you, I was just asking how you were doing, from someone who cared about you a lot (and still do, but not in the same way I guess).

I dont know what pissed you off so badly in the last message, maybe you just didnt want to hear from me, which is fine.

But I dont think I deserve to be made the guilty one out of all of this for following and doing what felt right for me.

I never crushed hearts, Shawn, they crushed mine and thought I'd stay and felt crushed in return when I finally said goodbye.

I dont consider you one of those, because you never really did anything to purposely hurt me.

I just couldnt wait too much longer for the slight chance that I would someday be what you are looking for.

I know what I'm worth, and it's more than that.

I'm sorry if I did hurt you. I guess now at least you have even more time to focus on whatever it is you have going on over there.

Angele

ps. what a terrible, terrible note to end on. I would have liked to end with positive thoughts... especially since I went through so much with you, it would be nice to look back at it as a positive memory, since most of it was. Too bad you have so much anger built up towards me. It makes me sad because I never did anything wrong. But you can feel the way you do, I cant change that.

Best of luck.

 
girl sounds like a bitch dude, dont let her make you feel guilty. if a girl crushes you and then talks to you like you are the one at fault then you are making the right call by telling her to fuck off.
 
You done? I hope so man. Because no matter what she says, this stuff is like cocaine for girls. She is LOVING it whether she admits it to herself or not. You need to stop feeding her societally-implanted-gender-role-specific need for melodrama and get the fuck on with your own shit because this is going to make you feel worse and her feel just oh so special.
 
True^ but hey, this is the shit... not in a good way..... I am done, she called me last night, but I still wasn't very nice to her. Can we get some female opinions please?

 
(disclaimer: this applies to most but NOT ALL girls)

give a woman a foot and she'll take a yard. honestly.

deal is you are feeding her appetite for this shit. cut it out and next her. that is....unless you like this back and forth shit. honestly if youre trying to get someone out of your life, and trust me on this because ive gone through it a couple of times, you lose ALL contact with them. stop responding to txt messages even if they piss you off to no end. read it then delete it and put it out of your mind. delete her telephone number. delete her emails and DO NOT respond to any that she may send to you. she seems to be the type that needs to keep her ex's in the back of her pocket "just in case". stay far far away from her and find a girl that deserves a nice guy.
 
Ahahahahahaha, was that a joke, Les? Don't send the guy on a wild goose chase now.
 
I've got a penis, so this may not be the opinion you're looking for, but oh well. Cut off the communication and move on man. If you start arguing, you'll lose. It's a known fact of life, there's no way in hell you can win in something like that.
 
i could never do this, sometimes i cant even read them myself let alone allow anyone with internet access to read
 
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