Introversion v extroversion. Is it innate? Or am I like this because of the way my brain has developed? If so, is that natural, or is it because of my behavior and/or processing? Am I antisocial because almost 100% of the things I think about are not things I would just talk about with people? Or is it my nature? Am I really fucking pretentious?
Why is my check engine light on?
I wonder how I'll die. I wonder whose fault it will be. I can't generalize and I can't speak for anyone but myself, but I feel as though it's a subconscious, or maybe even conscious thought that we're going to die of old age. But how many people don't? I wonder what I'll be thinking about. Not while I'm dying or the moments leading up to my death, but day to day. I wonder what I'll be doing regularly. Will it be somebody else's fault? Will it be of old age? Will it be an accident? Or will it be a result of my own self destructive tendencies?
Is there somebody out there?
Do I want this promotion? Or do I want to cut back my hours and try to live my life? What does that even mean? I've been living my life for almost twenty years. But really? Do I want to change things?
Why do I keep buying things when at the end of the day I really just want to minimize?
I feel like my mind and body are completely separate. They work together and rely on each other, yes. However, I often feel as though my body has a mind of its own. I feel as though I have a stubborn personality, but I also feel like my body (or my body's separate mind) is stubborn as well and that they are constantly sabotaging each other.
Why do I want to go to space if I'm already there? I mean really, I'm already there.
Is there anybody fucking out there? Do I even truly want there to be?