Let's Talk (Mental Health Disorder Thread)

13395634:[tk said:
]Weed, laced with something. I wish I knew what though. There is some history of bipolar on my mom's side of the family.

Let's talk. Weed wasn't laced, I have bipolar type 1.
 
13844556:[tk said:
]You wanna start?

I thought while being on antidepressants that it was normal to be totally hyped and believed I was capable of heading straight to a phd, then try and kill myself the next week. This repeated for MONTHS until I had a full out plan, called my family, wrote a will, and was going to do it. My depression never lifted, it just got worse. Turns out mood stabilizers do wonders and this is the best I've felt in my life, without feeling hypomanic. Idk, I guess the word is stable.
 
13844596:safarisam said:
I thought while being on antidepressants that it was normal to be totally hyped and believed I was capable of heading straight to a phd, then try and kill myself the next week. This repeated for MONTHS until I had a full out plan, called my family, wrote a will, and was going to do it. My depression never lifted, it just got worse. Turns out mood stabilizers do wonders and this is the best I've felt in my life, without feeling hypomanic. Idk, I guess the word is stable.

Stability is key. Do you go on the discord ever "Bipolar Buddies?" I'll copy and paste this from what I said in there:

Not to come off the wrong way here..but does anyone think you can experience a manic episode from too much happiness? Straight up, every time I've had an episode its been when I was in really good shape and happy with the state of the way things were going. Even before being hypomanic. I feel like there is some kind of balancing act here that we could use to our advantage, very carefully? Staying on medication. Im curious as to what your guys thoughts/experiences are on the matter.

I told my roommate that I felt like I was riding the stoke wave and just rode it a little too high. He told me its important to be able to control it and come back down off of the wave if that makes sense

My dad also told me once about the importance of tricking your brain into taking small steps of change rather than all at once. Otherwise it can kinda be a rush and overwhelming
 
13844641:[tk said:
]Stability is key. Do you go on the discord ever "Bipolar Buddies?" I'll copy and paste this from what I said in there:

Not to come off the wrong way here..but does anyone think you can experience a manic episode from too much happiness? Straight up, every time I've had an episode its been when I was in really good shape and happy with the state of the way things were going. Even before being hypomanic. I feel like there is some kind of balancing act here that we could use to our advantage, very carefully? Staying on medication. Im curious as to what your guys thoughts/experiences are on the matter.

I told my roommate that I felt like I was riding the stoke wave and just rode it a little too high. He told me its important to be able to control it and come back down off of the wave if that makes sense

My dad also told me once about the importance of tricking your brain into taking small steps of change rather than all at once. Otherwise it can kinda be a rush and overwhelming

YES!!! Sometimes I think extreme happiness can trigger it. I'm just so emotionally driven.
 
13844651:safarisam said:
YES!!! Sometimes I think extreme happiness can trigger it. I'm just so emotionally driven.

I try to be pretty rational but I think I'm the same way. Can be really tough to balance it out.
 
13395860:stinky_pete said:
yeah sorry that was a really stupid and shortsighted post. I've been close to a few people with anorexia and bulimia and it's definitely not something to joke about, sorry. +k

holy shit hahahahahhaha
 
More thoughts, had an excellent talk with someone close to me:

I told him about kinda harnessing the power of bipolar lol and he told me a lot of things but what it boiled down to for me was that na man, listen to your doctors/counselors and get healthy, set the bipolar side of your life aside and do things the right way, with hard work.

He has made a lot of rash decisions that have had serious consequences in his life. He told me you already have all of those good qualities within yourself without being manic *thumbs up emoji*
 
Has anyone ever experienced existential depression/death anxiety? Been fucking me up good for months now, I hate it.

**This post was edited on Oct 14th 2017 at 4:57:56pm
 
13844710:[tk said:
]I try to be pretty rational but I think I'm the same way. Can be really tough to balance it out.

Agreed, It's hard for me to draw the line where society says the bounds of happiness and mania are. Logic is what I try to rule my world with. Imagine in the 60s when people did drugs, didnt worry about it and drove muscle cars mad fast? were they on another higher level of happiness that is defined as manic now?

The answer is yes
 
I'm still kicking around so that's good.

Idk, still haven't gone and talked with anyone. After that cunt fucked things up for me in HS I still don't trust the system. I'm more open to it but haven't made the leap. I have no health insurance anyway so really can't honestly.

Maybe eventually. Would be cool to get things balanced out. Until then I'll just try and ride the highs and survive the lows. It's worked so far.
 
13845075:[tk said:
]More thoughts, had an excellent talk with someone close to me:

I told him about kinda harnessing the power of bipolar lol and he told me a lot of things but what it boiled down to for me was that na man, listen to your doctors/counselors and get healthy, set the bipolar side of your life aside and do things the right way, with hard work.

He has made a lot of rash decisions that have had serious consequences in his life. He told me you already have all of those good qualities within yourself without being manic *thumbs up emoji*

Knowing my trigger is #1 in preventing a depressive episode. I'm still working on the hypomanic triggers, and identifying when i'm going manic, but I'll get there.
 
EVERYONE FIX YOUR GOD DAMN DIET. YOU WILL CURE ALLLLLLLLLLL MENTAL DISEASE IF YOU FIX YOUR DIET. THAT MEANS A FRUIT & RAW VEGGIE BASED DIET. YES YOU CAN STILL HAVE SOME COOKED FOOD HERE AND THERE. JUST MAKE IT PLANT BASED COOKED FOOD. THIS JUNK FOOD, ALCOHOL, AND SMOKING IS MAKING SOCIETY LITERALLY INSANE. IT POISONS THE BRAIN. IT POISONS THE GUT (THE SECOND BRAIN). IT POISONS YOUR ENDOCHRINE SYSTEM (HORMONE SYSTEM).

SO PLEASE I EMPATHIZE WITH ANYONE WITH MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT QUIT BITCHING AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT NOW IS CLEARLY NOT WORKING. AND THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUTCOME. CHANGE YOUR DIET NOW.

RESEARCH ON YOUTUBE, DR. ROBERT MORSE. DR. SEBI. JOHN ROSE. DAN MCDONALD "THE LIFE REGENERATOR"

DM ME PERSONALLY ON IG. [tag=129479]@X_ANKILLA[/tag] I CAN HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF UP.
 
Preach brutha

14143543:X_ANKILLA said:
EVERYONE FIX YOUR GOD DAMN DIET. YOU WILL CURE ALLLLLLLLLLL MENTAL DISEASE IF YOU FIX YOUR DIET. THAT MEANS A FRUIT & RAW VEGGIE BASED DIET. YES YOU CAN STILL HAVE SOME COOKED FOOD HERE AND THERE. JUST MAKE IT PLANT BASED COOKED FOOD. THIS JUNK FOOD, ALCOHOL, AND SMOKING IS MAKING SOCIETY LITERALLY INSANE. IT POISONS THE BRAIN. IT POISONS THE GUT (THE SECOND BRAIN). IT POISONS YOUR ENDOCHRINE SYSTEM (HORMONE SYSTEM).

SO PLEASE I EMPATHIZE WITH ANYONE WITH MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT QUIT BITCHING AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT NOW IS CLEARLY NOT WORKING. AND THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUTCOME. CHANGE YOUR DIET NOW.

RESEARCH ON YOUTUBE, DR. ROBERT MORSE. DR. SEBI. JOHN ROSE. DAN MCDONALD "THE LIFE REGENERATOR"

DM ME PERSONALLY ON IG. [tag=129479]@X_ANKILLA[/tag] I CAN HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF UP.
 
14143543:X_ANKILLA said:
EVERYONE FIX YOUR GOD DAMN DIET. YOU WILL CURE ALLLLLLLLLLL MENTAL DISEASE IF YOU FIX YOUR DIET. THAT MEANS A FRUIT & RAW VEGGIE BASED DIET. YES YOU CAN STILL HAVE SOME COOKED FOOD HERE AND THERE. JUST MAKE IT PLANT BASED COOKED FOOD. THIS JUNK FOOD, ALCOHOL, AND SMOKING IS MAKING SOCIETY LITERALLY INSANE. IT POISONS THE BRAIN. IT POISONS THE GUT (THE SECOND BRAIN). IT POISONS YOUR ENDOCHRINE SYSTEM (HORMONE SYSTEM).

SO PLEASE I EMPATHIZE WITH ANYONE WITH MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT QUIT BITCHING AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT NOW IS CLEARLY NOT WORKING. AND THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUTCOME. CHANGE YOUR DIET NOW.

RESEARCH ON YOUTUBE, DR. ROBERT MORSE. DR. SEBI. JOHN ROSE. DAN MCDONALD "THE LIFE REGENERATOR"

DM ME PERSONALLY ON IG. [tag=129479]@X_ANKILLA[/tag] I CAN HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF UP.

I put a little lavender in my bath and that's been doing wonders. Im healed
 
14143543:X_ANKILLA said:
EVERYONE FIX YOUR GOD DAMN DIET. YOU WILL CURE ALLLLLLLLLLL MENTAL DISEASE IF YOU FIX YOUR DIET. THAT MEANS A FRUIT & RAW VEGGIE BASED DIET. YES YOU CAN STILL HAVE SOME COOKED FOOD HERE AND THERE. JUST MAKE IT PLANT BASED COOKED FOOD. THIS JUNK FOOD, ALCOHOL, AND SMOKING IS MAKING SOCIETY LITERALLY INSANE. IT POISONS THE BRAIN. IT POISONS THE GUT (THE SECOND BRAIN). IT POISONS YOUR ENDOCHRINE SYSTEM (HORMONE SYSTEM).

SO PLEASE I EMPATHIZE WITH ANYONE WITH MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT QUIT BITCHING AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT NOW IS CLEARLY NOT WORKING. AND THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUTCOME. CHANGE YOUR DIET NOW.

RESEARCH ON YOUTUBE, DR. ROBERT MORSE. DR. SEBI. JOHN ROSE. DAN MCDONALD "THE LIFE REGENERATOR"

DM ME PERSONALLY ON IG. [tag=129479]@X_ANKILLA[/tag] I CAN HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF UP.

Clearly it is working for you.

**This post was edited on May 25th 2020 at 9:17:55pm
 
14143543:X_ANKILLA said:
EVERYONE FIX YOUR GOD DAMN DIET. YOU WILL CURE ALLLLLLLLLLL MENTAL DISEASE IF YOU FIX YOUR DIET. THAT MEANS A FRUIT & RAW VEGGIE BASED DIET. YES YOU CAN STILL HAVE SOME COOKED FOOD HERE AND THERE. JUST MAKE IT PLANT BASED COOKED FOOD. THIS JUNK FOOD, ALCOHOL, AND SMOKING IS MAKING SOCIETY LITERALLY INSANE. IT POISONS THE BRAIN. IT POISONS THE GUT (THE SECOND BRAIN). IT POISONS YOUR ENDOCHRINE SYSTEM (HORMONE SYSTEM).

SO PLEASE I EMPATHIZE WITH ANYONE WITH MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT QUIT BITCHING AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE WHAT YOURE DOING RIGHT NOW IS CLEARLY NOT WORKING. AND THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUTCOME. CHANGE YOUR DIET NOW.

RESEARCH ON YOUTUBE, DR. ROBERT MORSE. DR. SEBI. JOHN ROSE. DAN MCDONALD "THE LIFE REGENERATOR"

DM ME PERSONALLY ON IG. [tag=129479]@X_ANKILLA[/tag] I CAN HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF UP.

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