Leaving my life. (A story of my craziest hallucinogenic experience)

Phil-X-

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A couple of people have showed intrest in hearing this story for a while, and I've never really fully typed it out. I guess todays the day to share my experience. (feel free to skip the background and shit n go straight to the trip itself, idc)

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BACKGROUND-

Its my junior year of highschool, at this point in my life I was pretty in to smoking weed and learning about other drugs/narcotics. A descent amount of my time would be spent online (websites such as 420chan and ERWOID) Many of you probably think that sounds stupid as hell, wasting my time studying drugs, but I always found the topic interesting and I enjoy having a wide understanding of different subjects. I never took any other drug in my life at this point, and wasnt really planning on experimenting with anything either (The world of drugs is a scary and amazing place at the same time).

A descent amount of time was spent learning about psychedelics and the ways they effect you. Learning about LSD, LSA, Shrooms, Peyote, DMT etc. was cool; seeing how these substances effected you absolutely blew my mind, however I didnt feel comfortable trying any of these just yet (mostly cause trippin for hours was a scary concept to me). Then I heard about Salvia. 15 minute trip, almost no come down, no side effects and you just havta take a hit, oh and its a plant too, like weed. Sick.

(Note- I am not a "stoner" by any means, most people have no idea I even smoke)

Getting the goods-

I live in IL, salvia is not legal in my state. Fuck. This was gonna be a serious problem, how am I going to get my hands on this shit? Well, weeks go by and I am pretty content with not having tried salvia yet, but then it happened. One day while browsing 420chan on the psychedelic board there was a salvia thread. I post in this thread for a few minutes and then some guy just tells me to email him... Sketchy.... But ill do it. So I exchange emails with this guy for a couple days and he seems really legit. No red flags or anything that made me suspicious. What I go on to find out, the guy lives in Canada, and grows his own salvia, makes extracts and sells it. Sick. Finally, I got a hook up. I sent him $20 in cash the first time, got a G of 20x salvia a few weeks later. Well I smoke all that with some friends and trip, its all fun but I see oppertunity. Everyone who tried it, loved it. I needed more, enough to sell.

Open for business-

I had good contact with this canadian guy and decided to make a bigger purchase. Bought a whole ounce of 20x via cash in the mail. Sure enough, a couple weeks later I get a "Dumb and Dumber" VHS in the mail, it was totally gutted and stuffed with a bag full of the mystical green plant matter. Since salvia became such a hype monster/ hot commodity cause of me, and I was the only person who had any, I ran a complete monopoly. I would sling .5 bags for $20 and all was good. I would trip with friends a pretty good amount. Had some great trips, scary trips, you name it. The way I saw it, even when I would have a scary trip, it was 15 minutes. I would look back on them and just think "damn that was crazy" I never became fearful or scared of it. One of my best friends cried while tripping, that happened twice.

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THE TRIP

Its 8pm and I am home alone. Bored out of my mind, might as well leave my mind. I decide to make a waterfall bong out of an ice mountain bottle and a bowl. I make a small hole in the bottle to maximize milkiness. (In case you were not aware, salvia is consumed in one large hit, that is held in as long as possible) I pack a little bowl (ok fine, it was pretty damn big, I had a lot of the shit) and go in my bathroom. I fill the bottle with water, hold the hole, spark the bowl and let the water flow into my bathtub.

The thick, heavy smoke poured down from the bowl, sitting on the water that was slowly disappearing. The water slowly emptied out, being replaced with the thick, yellow smoke, that shit got milkier then milk. I unscrew the cap to the magical smoke, bring it to my lips..

Inhale.

Hold.

Hold.

Hold.

Hold.

and it begins. The first effect you will notice when holding in your salvia hit is the wobbly vision. Usually about 10 seconds in your vision will quite literally begin to wobble. At this point most people just let the smoke release from their lungs. Being experienced, I just held on until I needed a breath of air.

I release my hit, and feel the effects beginning.

I stand up from sitting on the side of the bath tub and look straight in front of me. My mirror stands there (I think this is what led to the intensity of the trip), reflecting everything in a much more surreal way then a sober mind could imagine.

(This is where it really starts)

I stand there, staring at myself in this mirror. No sound, no motion; just staring. Slowly my vision advances out of my head, hard to explain this, but imagine if your vision could float around a see things in the third person but you cant control it. My vision goes about a foot infront of my body, then turns upwards and goes behind me. I am now staring at the back of my body from an upward angle (about 45 degrees, or like 8 feet high and 6 feet back) I can see my body. Why am I not in my body? Then it begins, I start slowly going backwards, away from my body. At a rate of about 1 ft per 4 seconds, I was moving further and further away from the back of my body/shell.

Now I begin to worry. My spirit has left my body, leaving behind just a shell and I will never get back to it. No matter how hard I tried or wanted to go back towards my body it wouldnt help. I was just slowly moving away from my starting point. No amount of effort would even slow me down, let alone let me back. The world that surrounded my body (that I was viewing from 3rd person) Was much much more intense then normal. Colors and lights were much more vivid. However, I was much more worried about being stuck as a spirit for the rest of time then the pretty colors.

For what felt like half and hour I slowly progressed backwards from my shell.

As I further moved backwards I passed through a door, not any kinda regular door, the best way to describe it was a submarine door. Like this-

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Except It was open and the door was entirely the most pure white color I have ever seen. This really freaked me out, Now my spirit is not even in the same dimension that my body is in. I have entirely left my life. In this new room I had the ability to turn my head, finally. I look to my left and see an infinite hallway, all white. This wasnt a normal hallway, this hallway was lined on both sides with a never ending amount of these submarine like doors. I look to my right, more doors. I can still see inside my door when I look forward and can see my entire existence within this one room. And every single one of those other doors, contained another humans life. I was in the hallway of existence itself. I could see millions of individuals lives, equal to mine. Living what they think is expansive and crazy, when they're just another door. Just another room with a body and soul in it, not unique in a massive sense but completely unique on a personal scale. Everything I have ever known, everyone I ever met, anything I had ever seen, in one, little room. One little room among the masses.

From there my trip faded and I had to sit down for about an hour to wrap my mind around what I just witnessed. Definitely an eye opening experience that I feel very lucky for having.

TL;DR- Smoked salvia, spirit/conscious mind left my life entirely, thought I would never get back, witnessed everybody elses lives, experienced the meaning of life.

 
I would agree that it was at the same level as breakthrough, but DMT is a much more geometrical trip, this was basically real life which is what was crazy, I full experienced it.

Most of my trips have been shit like seeing a giant school bus in the sky or a tiny ferris wheel with little men singing to me
 
Yeah I haven't done salvia but that's where it seems to differ from the usual hallucinogens like LSD, DMT, stuff like that. Instead of colors patterns etc. it's just nonsensical hallucinations of real life stuff? Sounds wild haha. It would be interesting to do salvia while already on an extended trip like shrooms or LSD.
 
Exactly, its a total wildcard. With lsd or shrooms you know what to expect usually, visual distortions, visual audio, waves, patterns etc. With salvia, it can be any of that +100000 different things
 
Ah i believe Salvia is also illegal in NC. This post made me want to try it though. Is salvia like k2? I've tried k2 and didn't like it all.
 
15 minute trip, 30 minutes of feeling a little different, full sobriety within an hour and a half. You might feel a bit weird that day or the day after but nothing that would effect you.
 
no, 100% different monsters. k2 is lab made chemicals sprayed on to plants that wouldn't do anything if you smoked them by themselves. salvia divinorum is a plant that has a naturally occurring hallucinogen in it, it's extracted and put back in the plant. hence potencys like 20x or 50x
 
me and 3 friends smoked salvia and drove to varsity waterpolo practice 40 minutes later. once the trip stops it's over. there's a mental cooldown period like I said but it's nothing more then a little fuzziness. like if you had just worked out or something
 
haha basically what thizzle said, dont worry about flashbacks or suddenly tripping again halfway home. Just drive once you feel comfortable, it effects everyone differently
 
you wont have any sense of reality for 15 minutes. if you can even remember how to drive or operate heavy machinery during that time I envy you.
 
What jponce said. For the 7-15 minutes you are tripping, you wont be a person. You wont be able to communicate with anyone and you probably wont hear anyone, ive never communicated with a person on salvia. its some trippy shit, youll probs sweat when you do it too, its just one of the side effects, dont worry, youre not having heart attack or something lol.
 
Yeah, it was a pretty cool story actually...

Better than a story about some opiate junky shooting up ina parking lot or something.
 
Thanks, I appreciate it. Thought there would be more intrest in this, guess anything longer then 50 words isnt NSG friendly haha
 
I torched a g of the 60x once back in the day. The old lady at this sketchy shop in meth country used to call and leave voicemails when she'd get "the stuff" in. I remember one day buying some there her dog shit all over on of the isles and we were walking around with incense in our sleeves up against our nose to walk around.

I think that was the most intense of an effect I ever got from salvia and as far as I can recall the last time I ever did it. The negatives didn't directly relate to the salvia but they were scary enough that I was totally cool with never doing it again. As far as salvia, I just really wanted to get as fuck up on it as I could once, that was really my only goal. Just to have the experience and move on with other things.

 
Out of all the hallucinogenics I've fucked with salvia has been my least favorite, maybe it's just me but I have a hard time forcing myself to hit a pipe full of smoke that may or may not send me on the scariest 15 minute trip of my life, I can't seem to justify that to myself. I get there's somewhat of that chance with boomers, LSD, deemsters but once you kinda try those once you can kinda feel them out and know what your in for and control your trip better, maybe not DMT but that shits fantastic every time. I feel like on salvia you're kinda just either potentially getting some totally tripping mind blowing shit or a trip that'll have you tweakin afterward.
 
Wait. You don't like the idea of salvia because you're scared to hit a bowl that's going to make you trip balls, but you're cool with deemsters?

I don't get this.
 
I guess it's more personal then anything, I had an awful first time experience with salvia and it ultimately kinda scared me away from psychedelics for a while, then I started to dabble in it a little bit, I ate some really good cubenzies, and had an awesome first time experience with those, I shared a mutual experience the first time I tried acid as well. I figured I'd try salvia again, and for the second time I had an awful experience, and now I've furthered my knowledge and experience with hallucinogens, and I cant seem to justify to myself risking sending myself into a bad trip is all, because the first two times I tried it were so bad. Guess it's personal.
 
I'm totally cool with never doing any hallucinogenics again.

I've some awesome stuff, I've used them as tools to better myself, I've had some good fucking times, but there's that point where you start to cross the threshold.

I guess I sort of got stuck in between worlds. More of me in this world though, and I'm glad for that. I just think at a certain point you have to weigh the pros and cons and recognize if something is starting to have a negative effect on your life.

I keep my feet on the ground these days and it's better that way. Would I like to go for a ride again sometime? I guess I do miss it. At the same time I have this fear that if I do, I'll simply float away. I don't wish to sever the threads that hold me into this realm.

Hallucinogens are cool, but you have to respect them. Be careful. Also there's some crazy designer drugs going around these days. Gotta watch your back.

Be safe.

 
Easy does it. One nice low key trip every year or two is good for the soul.

Noone needs more than that.

Good thing everyone should do in moderation.
 
Intense, but salvia kinda scares me. There was this thing called 'spice' that would give me the feeling of living myself in the 3rd person. Its hard to cope with that.
 
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