Well I have a nice story to tell you that might inspire you.
I was born with a 24 and 17 curbes scoliosis, normally people with these need surgery.
Unluckily my parents didnt know what was wrong with me and didnt care too much to make me see a doctor. On most of all my child photos you can actually see my head sitting on my shouldeer due to the curv.
I lived a normal kid life picked up soccer and skiing at young age, I started to race at 12 and that lasted until I was 16. At age 17 ,which was 2 years ago I started to experience intense back pain, bleedings and i was hospitalised several time for lobarian sprain, torn ligaments. I would wake up in the middle of the night without being able to move or bread because I would be hurt so much. Doctors did scans on my back and discovered my scoliosis, I was torn apart when my mom told me she knew about it. She didnt want to face it too, she had no idea it was that important at that time.
I had to give up most of the sports I did ( I was playing for the champlain cavaliers in soccer ), took a lot of pain killers but there was nothing really that could be donemore than that, at age 17 your back is almost fully grown and since I grew within the years the degrees of the curves decreases in a way that I dont necessarely need to get surgery, If I do, I face around 2 years of rehab, learning how to walk and wont prob get any chance to do any sports for the rest of my life.
After that, I was so depressed , I think I watched all the movies that exist on this planet. It became my own drug.
Last year, I was studying in Champlain College in arts and I got in a car accident. Women ran into me at 70kmh and I injured my back pretty bad. Shortly after that I visited my doctor for a normal visit to check up my neck and she told me,
I never believed that the good words wouldve came up from a doctor, since the last few years healt was the thing that kept me from doing the things I like.
Shortly after that I started skiing and cought the hang of it. Everytime I went back from each session I started to feel pain, really intense pain, sometimes I would even not be able to walk the next day and it happend 2 times that I needed to get blood drained from my back.
Last September doctor told me I should stop, that I was ruinning my chances of being able to even play with my kids when I would be older. Well Thats when I started Girlsonskis, I lost the happyness I got from skiing, but I got it back when I saw the girls having fun, when i saw them improving and when they thanked me for it. I still skied a couple of times and I still got hospitalised 2 times this years but I learned something really important, You hurt because your alive!
Now your lucky your coming back on skis after all! You need to be positive and work on something. My thing was movies, you can pick up a music instrument, start drawing, start making hats or anything. Training your brain into not doing anything will just keep you down and watching ski edits will make it also worst, because all you want to do is ski right, Get out of your house, take a class. You have time for it.
You can do it, everybody do ! Never give up !
Just take it
One day at a time
I hope this helped!