Step 1: Get job OR sell heroin (while you might miss it, I'm sure the white powder you really need is snow). If you sell it, skip to step 3. If caught, go directly to jail, do not post bond, and languish in the state pen for 30 years.
Step 2: Work your ass off, and put in as many hours as possible.
Step 3. Get the money. Locate your transportation of choice (mule, car, submarine, whatever is cheapest and you can put a ski rack on).
Step 4: Go to some snow. I would suggest Hood, Colorado, or if you don't mind hiking, then Montana.
Step 5: Commit suicide if you forgot your boots. If you didn't, put them on, and get out there.
Step 6: Send a check made out to the name and address I am pming you for $1000. This life coaching shit isn't easy, and if Dr. Phil can get paid for this, then I certainly should be.
Glad that we could work together to move you toward recovery. If you need intensive therapy, return mid-winter and we can talk. With an hourly wage of $45 plus expenses.