This hits close to home. I had three best friends that I saw every day after work back home, and every weekend and every party. I got a call today (we call each other to catch up all the time) and got some shitty news. I saw the use of coke steadily become more common in our group, myself included. It was one of my friends, Matt calling, and he started spitting information at me. Matt said he hadn't talked to Ben in weeks, and that Ben had been getting high on the shit lots. Mitch had been caught with blow, and our friend Brandon is facing a possible year sentence for drug trafficking (for drugs that weren't even his). Our lives were falling apart. I've been injured and drinking heavily and using marijuana, something I usually do as a hobby and for fun, as an escape. I know it's nowhere near your struggle, but it's the way I relate. Congrats on getting clean, and welcome to the community. Enjoy it. Nothing lasts forever, but skiing is something that makes that time worth it. Now just ski down there and jump off something for crying out loud!