my ex and i were terrible. we fought a lot, to a point where people didn't want to hang out with us, to a point where we threw shit at each other. move on man. a toxic relationship is a toxic relationship. it's bad for you, it's bad for her. it's fucking bad for your health. sometimes you just can't get along with someone, and it's not one's fault, just the way it works. for a long loong time i missed the shit out of my ex, but because i focused on all the shit i missed, all the good memories. sure there's gonna be tons of good memories, but then you eventually are going to realize how bad shit actually was. then you meet someone new, and it stops hurting so much. moving on is easier when you do it the first time. there's always someone out there, someone who'll always be better, you just have to know whether or not what you're doing is actually good for you.