thanks man, support really does help, e.g. with moral.
here in NZ we do have socialized medicine so it has hardly any cost, accept the batteries and programming of equipment that we get leant. our medical system is slow, and $$$ can speed it up dramatically if required. in my case, im under 20 in the education, so they want to get me back, so most things are free.
what you have must suck though. i will get better with some long term affects, but i will ride again. i think suacide would be something i would be considering if i didnt know that was the case, but hey, i have suffered from depression numerous times.
Well, it aint easy being steezey.