^^^^ and by next year, I mean this september.
I realized i had more to say.... in fact, I wrote a book for you. This is basically the last year of my life. Who knows why I'm telling you all this, but I just felt like writing it down.
In the fall I was part of a group of friends that all but dissolved because of some conflicts and the fact that almost everyone in this group ended up hooking up with another person in the group... At that time I wasn't looking for a girlfriend, because I went to a small private high school and I wasn't really 'into' anyone I knew, so I ended up lonely with a bunch of friends who didn't have much time for me. At this point I was pretty much ready to make some new friends who weren't so locked up in relationships.
As if on cue, along comes this girl who is just awesome and she draws me like a magnet (and still does, but that's another story, and I'm going to try and leave her out of this because I talk about her too much). She is the spark that sets all this off- she usually hangs out with some of my other friends who'd I'd become more distant from, but for obvious reasons, I ended up making a big transition over christmas break... my social life suddenly gets much more interesting, and I get to know a bunch of awesome new people.
And now we get to the point of this... along rolls summer, and 'group #1', as we'll call them, starts calling me again and inviting me to parties, camping trips, etc... probably because they no longer have to juggle school/relationship time (who knows, maybe they'd been doing stuff all spring, I hadn't done much with them though). I manage to make it to most of these but I refuse to blow off my other 'group #2' friends who have been very nice and accepting to the poor little social orphan that I was and still am to a degree... and group #1 basically flips out and punches its mom in the face every time I can't make it to one of their gatherings (
a reference to this). I find this kinda unfair since it was them who didn't have any time for me for a while... and while I still feel like an asshole when I have to pick 'which friends' I want to hang out with today, it's obvious which side I will lean towards.
(It may seem at this point that I'm incredibly arrogant and think everybody loves me... I promise you, that's not the case. I just ended up knowing a lot of people)
It's a pity, because I still really enjoy hanging out with most of the 'group #1' people- one guy is one of my best friends, but I've seen him less and less because he has a girlfriend now... and while I don't blame him, it sucks because his girlfriend is the main person who flips out and punches her mom in the face (not literally) every time I can't make it to something... and makes a huge deal about me hanging out with 'the other crowd.' This is also sad because in the past I'd had fun with her too and she's not a bad person by any means. Some other people also think I'm sort of an asshole for the same reasons. That is something I honestly don't think I deserve.
I had to stave off another vicious round of accusations and attacks just this week, because while figuring out my calendar, I messed up some dates and overlapped some things and ended up missing a party because of it. I'm sure some people will never forgive me.... whatever.
(I guess this isn't technically all summer, but most of it was caused by summer
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The government can put a gun in my hands and send me to die in Iraq, but I can't buy a beer.
I fucking LOVE the USA.
