i don't really care about dying, i mean, if i die, then i'm dead. it's over, i won't have to try anymore. i don't live my life to the fullest, i just live my life. i've had enough near-death experiences to understand that it could happen at any time, so when it does, i hope nobody close to me gets too agitated. the only thing that bothers me about dying now, is that someone might care too much about it, instead of just cleaning out my room and being done with it.