1) You need serious help, and NS is not the place to find it (and I don't believe in shrinks, so don't try it).
2) I believe meds(prozac, etc.) is the worst thing you can do for yourself.  They only make you dependent.
3) Stop feeling sorry for yourself, life sucks, get a fucking helmet.  I thought I was going to be the starting shortstop for the Baltimore Orioles, guess what? I'm not. Just cause your life isn't turning out the way you wanted it to, doesn't mean you should give up. DO SOMETHING. Make a change, no one is going to save you, you have to do it yourself, but you will always have a support group if you really want to change. And if you don't, PM me and I'll listen to you anomalously as long as you like....