Wishing my life away?

JmckR

JmckR

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I moved to Canada in June last year on a 2 year work visa. Started work at Panorama BC to work as a lifty in the bike park.

Had an absolute fucking blast and progressed so much, until I basically exploded my wrist in a big crash whilst practicing for a DH race. So that cut my summer short by quite a lot, so I then spent the rest of summer waiting for winter, where I worked as a ski instructor, also at Pano.

However I could never get biking off my mind. Since I was a kid I've always been a skier, but I had such a damn good summer all I wanted to do was bike again now the wrist was better. So I basically spent all winter waiting for summer.

Now summer is here, I've been out on my bike quite a lot, but I'm already waiting for winter again now. I really fucking miss skiing, I guess you don't know what you've got until it's gone? Maybe it's just because I've got the need to bike again out of my system?

It seems I'm never happy with where I am or what I'm doing, like I'm wishing my life away.

Not sure if there's an underlying cause to this. Just wanted to get it off my chest.
 
I don’t think it’s a bad thing that you’re constantly on the search to please your hearts desire. Life will be that way! We’re always just on the search for something.

Sometimes it also becomes hard for us to embrace what we’re doing at the moment. I find it so hard sometimes to be pleased with myself. I know it’s not a “you” thing, and that you’re just constantly wishing for the other thing, but it goes to the same conclusion. If I’m stuck in a moment where I want to be doing something else, or I want to be somewhere else, or if I’m just unhappy about something, I’ll try and embrace what situation I am stuck in at the moment. Try and look at it from an outside perspective is all I’m trying to get at.

And if it helps, try pumping yourself up about whatever you’re doing at the moment. Are you biking? Watch some edits, go to events, engage in it as much as possible. Kind of a cliche, but time flies fast when you’re having fun! In the blink of an eye, it’ll be winter once again. During that period of time, watch ski edits, go to events and pump yourself up. It might be tough but there’ll be a point where you realize that being stuck in one time will be more rewarding than dissatisfaction.
 
Classic symptoms of the grass is greener on the other side. Maybe you need to move to an area that has both those sports year around and you can get your fix when that craving arises. But until then, Satanworshiper has some good advice and watch edits, get involved with the community about the sport, hang with others that want to ride and feed off of their enthusiasm. Glad to hear the wrist is healed up.
 
It’s important to be fully present in each moment. Just enjoy what you have in front of you. A little gratitude goes a long way.

That’s why they call it the present ?
 
i experience this as well. when i have skiing i just want to hop on my skateboard in some warm weather and shorts and cruise around the streets with my friends. now that its summer i just want to ski.

satanworshipper is right. just try to live in the moment and enjoy what u can currently experience. its not easy to change ur mindset like that overnight but its doable. live laugh love and all that shit
 
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