Actually thought of something real.
Still doing the health care circle jerk. Can't find out how much blood work is because it's not in the system, call the place I got the order from, can't find out how much the bloodword is because it's through the hospital. Also spent about $300 so far and know nothing, have had nothing done.
All I got was some nurse trying to screen me for depression, when I told her that wasn't it, trying to be stealthy(which she wasn't) and screen me anyway.
I love how in the health care industry so many people don't give a fuck about you or what's wrong with you. At the end of the day they still get paid. Maybe they're over worked, maybe there's other shit, maybe they're tired of dealing with people, idk. I'm just saying that if I pay money, and extremely courteous as usual, and I simply want some help, I feel like I could expect some decent service.
I know they aren't doctor house, they aren't going to look at me from across the room, tell me whats wrong with me, make fun of me for something, then give me a shot that magically cure me. I'm realistic. At the same time, I'm still feeling like shit, it's having a shitty impact on my life, making it hard just to live normally let alone work full time and deal with all kinds of stuff.
I was feeling like shit, but manageable shit for a while. Kind of forgot a bit about how bad I had been feeling. Now it was getting increasingly shitty again and today it's just fucked. Hopefully by the start of 2016 I'll at least know what the fuck is wrong with me, and maybe have worked out some sort of plan for getting better, If I can get well and not be out several thousand dollars, that is also a plus. I just can't live like this though.
Maybe I'll start snorting flinstone vitamins and only drinking water I collect by hand from the tops of the most remote mountains. Ill set up some crystals around my bed and do naked yoga under the full moon.
Idk, this just sucks though.
That said, shout out to the Doctors on call guys where I was living in CO. They killed it. Cared about their job, legitimately cared about people, the job and the people were always first, everything else including the money seemed like an afterthought.