Never Blow Off a Friend in Need

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attitash46

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While I was writing this I was crying. I just really need to put this out there. So a little back-story on this quote, one of my friends committed suicide last Wednesday on November third. Davie Kluge, he was a freshman at Rockport High, an honors student, in the band, who got student of the year twice out of his three years in middle school. I ski with him in New Hampshire at Attitash, he is there every weekend and he will be really missed. I wasn’t able to ski with him much this last season because of my broken leg and I was working but two years ago we shredded together every weekend in March and April. He was damn good skier, doing 900s at like fourteen years old, like he was one of the youngest freestyle kids at the mountain but still one of the best. And I’m truly going to miss him. But that’s not the real moral to my prayer. A lot of people cannot believe that someone could take their own life that it could be so bad that they would have to come to that. Well, only three people in the world know about this but I was there last April.



I had just gotten back from the service trip with my school to Virginia and although I really enjoyed my time there and I still think of it as one of the best times of my life, I left with a very sour feeling. I didn’t have any real close friends on the trip but I did know most of the kids on the trip and considered myself to be friends with them. But while I was down there, I got the feeling that I was unimportant and that everyone just thought of me as annoying and that I wasn’t really adding to the trip or experience at all. So I got home and my mom and I immediately went up to New Hampshire for the last checkup on my leg and the whole way up there, I was talking to one of my close friends and kinda venting my problems. But apparently she had problems of her own and didn’t really want to hear it. We atrted argueing cuz things were getting awkward between us but she didnt believe it. So at like twelve thirty at night I got a text "Whatever, Fuck you and goodbye" and it really sent me over the edge. I had just lost a very close friend and to be honest I considered myself to have only two friends at that point. So that’s when the idea really popped into my head.



I went downstairs and got a knife thinking that I wasn’t actually going to do it but figured that it would be a good idea just to have it with me. I kept dwelling on the fact that I was a junior in High School, I didn’t have a girlfriend, had a very limited amount of friends so I came to the conclusion that if I did do it that no one would really care. I could picture the funeral with only like twenty people there and most of them would be my parent’s co workers. So I sent a text out to one of the few friends, Lauren who goes to Peabody High, that I thought I had saying goodbye and that she had been a really good friend and it was not her fault. After a few texts she caught on to what was going on and she called me balling her eyes out saying that she could not let me do that. Even though we were like 125 miles away she said she would do absolutely anything for me to stop. And that really shocked me and proved that someone did really care. I can honestly say that I don’t think I would be standing here today if she had been asleep or not caught on as fast as she did.



So the real moral to the story is to never leave a situation on a bad note. Never let bad thoughts about someone linger and always settle it on the spot because you never know that what the other person could be going through, it could be the last time that you ever talk to them. You could be that life line and never even realize it. I don’t blame the girl who sent that text to me at all but it makes you think what your words are really doing.

Sorry guys but i had to get that off my chest and mae sure the same thing doesnt happen to someone else.

 
wow man that was deep. Im glad you didnt do it. Just be strong and be thankful for the friends you have. Its not about the number, its about how close you are to those few you have.
 
Super glad that you didn't do it. Believe it or not but all of us on NS care about you and I know tons of us would be here to talk through anything that you are going to or just hear a rant.
On that same note you need to not let other peoples opinions affect your happiness. I have always been a strong advocate that if you arn't happy about something in your life then take the appropriate steps to change that problem. You can become whoever you want as well as become friends with whoever you want, life has so many opportunities that sometimes you just have to look at where you want to go rather then where you have been. There is so much wrong with the world that it is often hard to see what is right with it, but trust me there is SOO much right and beautiful about the world that you live in.
 
Way to be man, thats big to come on to NS and write that up. keep your head up, life isn't all smooth sailing.Skiing is almost here, and for some it already is, and I can garuntee you NOTHING will make you smile faster.Big ups brotha!
 
I had a lot of respect for you before steezepolize, but that just increased it by ten fold. Listen to his words because they are dead on, and you will live such a happier, fulfilling life. I am happy you are still with us bud, so that makes 4.
 
huge props brother. ive had thought about ending things. I just stay as positive as I can, and count my blessings. Stay up homie, dont let lifes bs get to you.
 
I'm glad you didn't do it man. There is always someone out there for you, dont lose hope and remember that every negative action that you take has a negative reaction on someone so there is always someone who is affected by you and cares about you. +vibes.
 
I am glad you were re-assured that there is someone that cares for you so much.

I had a similar situation last night, and i always come to the conclusion that it would not make anything better.

You are always loved by someone. Remember that!

 
+vibes! hope things start to work out for you, and every buddy has a moment of weakness, you just gotta know that you'll come out stronger
 
exactly.

ns will make fun of you, embarrass you, scare you, and piss you off, but when it comes down to it, every ns'er is still a person. And despite what it may sometimes look like, each member is cared for. It sounds stupid and desperate, but if you feel that shitty and come to ns, people will help. They always do.

you're young. Don't worry about things like girlfriends, or even having a bunch of friends for that matter. You clearly have at least 1 good friend who cares very much, and that in itself can be enough. Some people just don't excel in certain stages of life. When i was little i had a lot of friends. As a teen i had few, now I have a few great friends, and a fair number of just...friends.

give life time to happen.
 
fuck, it takes a lot to get me to teer up, and you did it.

gotta look at the things you have, you seem to have a well structured family that loves you. and i mean look at your situation with positive eyes, you may not have a lot of good friends around you and thats in no way your fault. be yourself and people will like you for who you are, like the second girl you spoke on. ive experienced a few deaths throughout high school, and i go to a high school with no more then 380 students, and its a good feeling for no one.

hope you have a great winter without any injuries, you always have friends on the mountain..come to NY and shred some ice with us
 
I completely agree. At any point in time you have a bunch of people on ns, that regaurdless of whether or not they know you, care and are ready to help. I mean, it's a skiing community, and even though people seem nasty, I think the responses to this tread show that even people you dont know care about your wellbeing. At least I do.
 
+vibes man, glad you didn't do it. sorry about your friend. just try and surround yourself with friends and other positive people in your life right now, there's so much to live for.
 
wow...tearing up right now. really glad you didnt do it man, i've had thoughts of doing the same thing but then i realize that i still have so much life to live..i'm only 16. everyone goes through rough patches in their life at some point or another, you aren't alone. +++vibes bro, stay positive
 
Think of that moment as the rock-bottom point in your life. Now you're only on your way up.

Good luck bro, and you can always come to us if you need help in any way.

:)

 
I'm glad you didn't do it! You're still young, like most of us. It's way too soon to give up on life. Everyone lives through hard moments in his life. + Vibes to you, trust me,t hings will get better real soon!!

 
See that's the good thing. If you can make it through those times, it gets better. There are always times where life sucks, but then there are some good times. Like skiing/snowboarding. Sometimes just that is enough to keep you going.

I think everybody goes through depression and suicidal thoughts at some point. Some more than other, and some way more severe. It sucks when a friend follows through. Sometimes they don't realize how many people actually care about them, or are so hurt that they want other to hurt. When they aren't there anymore, they can't see the people they've hurt, the amount of people that cared about them. It happens far too often. + vibes though, it's tough to go through. Be strong and keep your head up my friend.
 
My good friend's dad died of cancer tonight. I watched one of the toughest son's of bitches I knew get reduced to nothing but a hospital bed and a heart monitor. I sit here on the computer balling my eyes out tonight. He was diagnosed with melonoma no less than 2 months ago. In 2 fucking months, cancer consumed a man that was like a second father to me. I will never ever forget him. My friend is being really positive about this but I know on the inside he just wants to cry and cry.

Fuck cancer. Fuck Melonoma.
 
last year i met a girl that would become by best friend. she had cancer and for some reason or another not very many of her friends she could count on. so i stepped in. i would visit her and talk to her constantly to keep her company. i spent hours at night talking to her. I would do anything to help a friend. there all i got. we became such good friends that the girlfriend i had at the time got extremely jealous even though i never would want to be anything more than a friend to her(friends name was emily). so i ended up choosing a friend over a relationship. her parents always say that she wouldn't have made it through the school year if it wasn't for me.
 
+vibes dude im sorry for your loss.
on another note, glad that you pulled through man. Its always nice to know that friends are there for you through the good and bad
 
vibes bro, that truly is a good story, there will always be at least one person who has your back in life
 
no problem bro.

going thru something right now:/ nothing to do with death or anything like that, but here it is...

so at the beginning of last school year, i finally grew some balls and asked out the girl i had liked forever. she said yes and life couldnt get better, i was the soccer star, had the girl of my dreams, and was skiing every weekend. i was soo happy, and this continued all through june. it kept getting better, me and my gf were having amazing times together, and my soccer team had made it to states. fast forward to the middle of july... we hadnt seen each other in about 2 weeks and for some reason werent talking that much, i felt that in order to make her happy i felt the need to break up with her. the love of my life. we reamined best friends to this day, and i still love her, right now as i type, and my love gets stronger everyday. about 2 weeks ago her and my best friend began dating, now this kid is my boy. it just kills me. so me and the girl (tracy btw) are talking tonight and i mentioned that it would have been a year we were dating last week, and then i began getting really sad, and then finally i told her i love her. i regret my descision so much and right now im just sitting here balling my eyes out with no clue what to do.

fml.
 
shit man, + vibes to you too.
man i know hes your bro and all...but wtf. did he not even ask you if it would bother you to date her? thats kind of a dick move, but a bro is a bro. One of my buddies moved in on a chick i was gunna go for while i was in europe on spring break, that was shitty. but your situation is bigger than that.
I hope it doesnt affect your relationship with your bro, and i hope that someday you get back together with the girl of your dreams man.
 
thanks a ton man,

yea he was really a dick about, and i hope that too..

and thanks, i really appreaciate it
 
as has been said before, you have a whole community behind you. Whenever someone in the skiing community passes, no matter ho big or small of an impact they have on the community itself, we all feel it.
glad you could pull through. know that you always have people who care.
 
+vibes man. just remember the skiing community is a very close-knit one, perhaps the closest of sports communities and we've all got your back and all care about fellow members who share a common passion of skiing. stay strong, you've got an entire community standing behind you.
 
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