Lowest point in your life?

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Probably when I was a sophomore in highschool. Came home from school and just sat there and did nothing. I had no friends and was completely uncertain about my future. One day I came home from school and cried for an hour. Two hours later I was in the woods by my house, holding a knife to my throat, and leaving a suicide letter. Don't know why I didn't end it, but I just took 3 deep breaths, dropped the knife, and walked home.
 
freshman year in high school, i was dating this boy who was a senior. we went to California and Disneyland. the day after we came back, he hung himself. he was such a wonderful person and an amazing musician. i miss him every day. probably the toughest time in my life, trying to get over it. now i'm pretty okay with it but people talk about suicide like it's the sports or something. it's not a subject to be taken lightly. we need to do something about this generation.

in 2013, 1,149 suicides were reported, making suicide the 10th leading cause of death for Americans. In that year, someone in the country died by suicide every 12.8 minutes. it's not something to be spoken passingly about.
 
Probably year 10 when I got bullied a lil bit by a few douchebags. However now I'm living in a different country and they're still doing shit all and smoking bongs so I win.
 
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Probably last month when one of my best friends from high school killed herself. Still can't wrap my head about it. I guess you could consider that now too. Idk. I don't think I'll ever be able to put it behind me.

Or maybe 8th grade when I had my first bit of anxiety. It got pretty bad and to the point where I couldn't get myself to go to school. I missed about 30 days that year. It kind of subsided in 10th and 11th grade. Then senior year it hit me pretty hard again. Not fun at all but I learned a lot from it. So I guess it wasn't all bad. Definitely sucked at the time though.
 
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Probably when I was a sophomore in highschool. Came home from school and just sat there and did nothing. I had no friends and was completely uncertain about my future. One day I came home from school and cried for an hour. Two hours later I was in the woods by my house, holding a knife to my throat, and leaving a suicide letter. Don't know why I didn't end it, but I just took 3 deep breaths, dropped the knife, and walked home.
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Hey, kid I’m almost 21 and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. Live in the moment and don’t take the small things for granted. 1.2 billion people still live in extreme poverty, while more than 800 million struggle to find food. You are living very well compared to a lot of other people so embrace it.

If there is a void or hole in your life think about helping others in need. Volunteer and give to those that are less fortunate than you. You’ll be surprised at how easily it can lift you out of depression and in the process you’ll make others radiate as well.

Don’t worry and don’t overthink things, it will bite you in the butt. I use to do that as a teenager and it caused me derealization and depersonalization which is not a good feeling.
 
13378704:selfiejesus said:
in 2013, 1,149 suicides were reported, making suicide the 10th leading cause of death for Americans. In that year, someone in the country died by suicide every 12.8 minutes. it's not something to be spoken passingly about.
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This math does not add up.
 
13378829:CONAIR_BUSCEMI said:
Hey, kid I’m almost 21 and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. Live in the moment and don’t take the small things for granted. 1.2 billion people still live in extreme poverty, while more than 800 million struggle to find food. You are living very well compared to a lot of other people so embrace it.

If there is a void or hole in your life think about helping others in need. Volunteer and give to those that are less fortunate than you. You’ll be surprised at how easily it can lift you out of depression and in the process you’ll make others radiate as well.

Don’t worry and don’t overthink things, it will bite you in the butt. I use to do that as a teenager and it caused me derealization and depersonalization which is not a good feeling.
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I hate this argument. "There are other people who don't have as much food, don't have a house, have a smaller dick, don't have skis, or whatever so you should be depressed". This mentality just goes to show our lack of understanding of mental illness.

I do agree that helping others can be very therapeutic. If nothing else at least you can help somebody else out make them feel better, even if you still feel like shit.
 
freshmen year in high school i was the worst. I like myself now but i know i'll look back at myself in future years and think that the version of me that i am right now is the worst
 
13378833:theabortionator said:
I hate this argument. "There are other people who don't have as much food, don't have a house, have a smaller dick, don't have skis, or whatever so you should be depressed". This mentality just goes to show our lack of understanding of mental illness.

I do agree that helping others can be very therapeutic. If nothing else at least you can help somebody else out make them feel better, even if you still feel like shit.
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Well you kind of put words in my mouth. I only was referring to those that are living in poverty and do not have the essentials to survive. Millions are starving to death, which in and of itself is a very slow and painful way to die.

Wants are interminable and yearning for things will cause suffering and can in the process destroy a persons earthly and spiritual nature.

Though, those that have only the essentials and rid of cravings most often than not are less depressed than people who indulge themselves with materialistic things.
 
When I finally accepted I had made the wrong choice in schools and that I was going to move back home to go to CC for a year. It was such a low point because of how amazing college was supposed to be and I was not experiencing any of it. Moving back in was such a defeat and I was not in good place mentally.

It was also one of the best decisions I've made as I put myself on the path to transfer to my current school, where three years later I am loving every day and excelling like I never have before.
 
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when i realized i will never be as autistic as ryan gosling
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You will never have this.

You will always just be a normal autistic 9 year old trapped in a crocs wearing 19 year old's body.
 
Probably age like 6-16. Got my ass rocked pretty regularly by my dad and was genuinely afraid to be at home while my parents were home. Best moments growing up was when I was home alone and could feel safe, but hearing my parents cars come down the driveway literally struck fear into me everyday not knowing how shit would go down.

Worst part was that everybody thought I had this perfect life. Top of my class, "popular jock" that all the teachers loved and a family with plenty enough money (more than most of my friends, lived in a pretty low income city) and that was involved in the church (yeah yeah yeah, I know NS hates churches). That was just completely ruined by the fact that my parents thought I was a total fuck up and I was getting chewed out every time I went home. Something about parental approval that you just can't get past and that can really fuck with your head. Luckily I had a lot of awesome role models away from my parents (coaches, sister, pastors).
 
Still currently in one of the lowest points of my life. High school dropout with not many friends and not doing anything productive in my life. Family is split apart and not being able to afford my own therapy lessons because I can't tell my dad and my mom is barely getting by. My dad doesnt give a shit about me and I've been suicidal for about 9 months or so and social anxiety has been getting worse lately. First world problems but yeah.
 
Probably at my lowest point now. Have zero close friends which is really starting to take a toll on me because I really haven't had close friends since I was little and I'm 25 now. It never really bothered me before, but within the last few months it's kinda just making me realize how unhappy I am and things just don't seem like they will improve.
 
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