I've been having the same problem. I miss my friends the most, and my friends are who I ski with every winter, we grew up together ect. College blows, everyone has every resource they can ask for and it's all basically spoon fed to them. I need to find a college where I can meet people of the same sort as myself. I feel like people get so fucking lazy and ignorant because they don't have to work for what they have. Most college students are there because their parents told them to go and they are paying for it. My college community is dead, there basically is none. On the other hand I get distracted by the thought of my future. We spend so much time and money at college, and then we have to pay it all back afterwards. Society deems an education as the key to our future, but honestly I think that experience is the most important part of an education. College is no different than highschool I think. I need some direction too bro, I'm not sure what I want to do with myself and I'm afraid by the time I figure out it will be too late. I would start small and just figure out what you enjoy and what makes you happy and comfortable and pursue a career in that. I decided I want to benefit other humans on a daily basis. Theres so much going on technologically now that I'm not even going to bother pursuing a career in architechture or CE but instead I want to do something related to the enviroment, where I can improve realistic living conditions every day, instead of improving how some dumb fucking device works. I want to move in a direction where my work impacts nature, and human lifestyles, instead of focusing on efficient transportation or whatever. The focus of this world I think is going in the worst direction possible, we are creating a culture where everyone is brain dead, and we don't even have to use the remote to change the channel. I want to pursue a career that emphasizes how to really live and how to really be happy, alive, and comfortable with ourselfs and society. But I have no fucking clue what that would be.