haha. today was a bittersweet day. mostly sweet though. lets start with last night though. I was dressed up as zoolander. looken purty hawt. 2nd floor laird hall crew makes its way over to the house party in st anne. i have two girls on my side and am rocking a nice buzz. we get to the house and turns out the cover is 10$.
pshh yeah right i sneak by the doorwoman and into the glory. it was sweet. free drink, in a trash can. I start drinking. what did me in though was chugging. no more chugging mixed drink. fuuck. i didn't throw up though that night. i did something worse though. I hooked up with an ugly chick. FUCK. topping on the cake? fell alseep without the covers on. pictures were taken. and shown. apparently my roommate robin was literally giving the entirety of laird hall a personal showing, live. to me and liz. and francois told me he showed practically half of laird hall. everyone knows. the whipped cream? she threw up in my bed. ahh.
I don't remember walking back from the party, or how we ended up hooking up. i do remember while we were in bed though. i guess its better to remember that. its not like i could see her. fuck. my track record has not been the best here. ah well. it made me realize, life is fucking awesome. even the worst thing to happen to me in long time isn't that bad.
today was recovery, it was funny to laugh about i guess. i woke up. my room was chaos. went to class SO HUNG OVER. i didn't learn anything. damn i should be ashamed. havn't done any work today. cleaned my room though. and got liz to wash my sheets. life is great. i am so so lucky to be learning, and living in this little utopia place. smoked today. in the middle of a field right on campus. was a little sketchy. eh. life is too good, i better do some real good things in the world to warrent all comforts of my life. though i guess not much can really warrent all the comforts of my life when there are people living like shit. and so many of them. DAMN my world is so good. its so unfair. i can't believe how lucky i am to be sitting here at my laptop typing this. when i easily could be someone else writing the same shit, but opposite.
so im fairly certain that i'm going to adopt a kid. If there is karma, which im pretty much certain there isn't, adopting a kid would get you a shitton of it. its such a good thing to do. props to people who adopt out of the goodness of their heart.
I came to the realization the other that i'm actually a natural introvert. at least i think i am. i'm not sure if thats a bad thing yet.
i am so lucky not to have anything medically wrong with me. i am so lucky to just be normal. at yet everyone is special. thats whats so great. tommorow is halloween. its going to be awesomee. skiing is going to be awesommee.
on another note. If i got accepted to cornell transfer option. would i do it? I really don't know. And its a pretty big decision. its like, i would be abandoning my friends, but also kinda joining my family, and my home. except my friends are my family, and they make home home. either way my life will be awesome. so thats the good thing.
unless something horrible happens to me, or just the world. like say i get injured or something. really injured. that would be horrible. every year in skiing i make goals for myself. this year i think my only goal will be not to get hurt.
well i mean of course im going to get hurt. but i mean REALLY hurt, like hospital hurt. i want to keep my record cleen.
on another note. i smoke a lot of pot. weed, ganja. herbs. will i end up regretting it? right now i average between one or twice daily.
pshh yeah right i sneak by the doorwoman and into the glory. it was sweet. free drink, in a trash can. I start drinking. what did me in though was chugging. no more chugging mixed drink. fuuck. i didn't throw up though that night. i did something worse though. I hooked up with an ugly chick. FUCK. topping on the cake? fell alseep without the covers on. pictures were taken. and shown. apparently my roommate robin was literally giving the entirety of laird hall a personal showing, live. to me and liz. and francois told me he showed practically half of laird hall. everyone knows. the whipped cream? she threw up in my bed. ahh.
I don't remember walking back from the party, or how we ended up hooking up. i do remember while we were in bed though. i guess its better to remember that. its not like i could see her. fuck. my track record has not been the best here. ah well. it made me realize, life is fucking awesome. even the worst thing to happen to me in long time isn't that bad.
today was recovery, it was funny to laugh about i guess. i woke up. my room was chaos. went to class SO HUNG OVER. i didn't learn anything. damn i should be ashamed. havn't done any work today. cleaned my room though. and got liz to wash my sheets. life is great. i am so so lucky to be learning, and living in this little utopia place. smoked today. in the middle of a field right on campus. was a little sketchy. eh. life is too good, i better do some real good things in the world to warrent all comforts of my life. though i guess not much can really warrent all the comforts of my life when there are people living like shit. and so many of them. DAMN my world is so good. its so unfair. i can't believe how lucky i am to be sitting here at my laptop typing this. when i easily could be someone else writing the same shit, but opposite.
so im fairly certain that i'm going to adopt a kid. If there is karma, which im pretty much certain there isn't, adopting a kid would get you a shitton of it. its such a good thing to do. props to people who adopt out of the goodness of their heart.
I came to the realization the other that i'm actually a natural introvert. at least i think i am. i'm not sure if thats a bad thing yet.
i am so lucky not to have anything medically wrong with me. i am so lucky to just be normal. at yet everyone is special. thats whats so great. tommorow is halloween. its going to be awesomee. skiing is going to be awesommee.
on another note. If i got accepted to cornell transfer option. would i do it? I really don't know. And its a pretty big decision. its like, i would be abandoning my friends, but also kinda joining my family, and my home. except my friends are my family, and they make home home. either way my life will be awesome. so thats the good thing.
unless something horrible happens to me, or just the world. like say i get injured or something. really injured. that would be horrible. every year in skiing i make goals for myself. this year i think my only goal will be not to get hurt.
well i mean of course im going to get hurt. but i mean REALLY hurt, like hospital hurt. i want to keep my record cleen.
on another note. i smoke a lot of pot. weed, ganja. herbs. will i end up regretting it? right now i average between one or twice daily.
